The Great Gatsby

The cover of the first edition of The Great Ga...

The cover of the first edition of The Great Gatsby (1925) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

By F. Scott Fitzgerald; Scribner; @ 1925; 180 pages.

This is another book that I read a long time ago when I was way too young. (Why do our teachers do this to us?) Anyway it’s one of my coworker’s favorite books of all time. Of all time? —seems to be my standard reaction. I read this book many years ago and found it excruciatingly boring.

This is a book club book for me, and even though I swore I wouldn’t go again, I changed my mind. That’s because the vote was between this book and a book by Bill O’Reilly. I couldn’t let it pass; I had to vote. (Call it fate.) Since this book was selected by one vote (mine), I felt obligated to read it.

The Great Gatsby is set on the East Coast of the United States during the roaring twenties. Jay Gatsby is fabulously wealthy, handsome, and mysterious—and throws the most amazing parties. Everyone who is anyone attends, but people rarely see him. He stands off to himself, aloof and happy just to see others having a good time.

Our narrator, Nick Carraway, is a pretty well-to-do guy himself, but next to Gatsby, he is small potatoes. By chance, our narrator has rented a house in Gatsby’s neighborhood, right next door to Gatsby.

I’ve been studying the narrative arc lately while trying to pry my own story out of my brain. I noticed that Act I, where the stasis and the trigger occur, doesn’t end until page 80! Or, maybe the trigger occurs a lot sooner on page 11, but we don’t know that the trigger has fired until page 79 when we find out that Gatsby knows our narrator’s second cousin once removed, Daisy.

I felt sorry for Gatsby. It seems his great wealth affords him much waste. He threw all these parties hoping that Daisy would show up at one of them, but she never did. Finally, he finds another way to come back into her life. Nick makes the following observation after Gatsby and Daisy have gotten reacquainted:

As I went over to say good-by I saw that the expression of bewilderment had come back into Gatsby’s face, as though a faint doubt had occurred to him as to the quality of his present happiness. Almost five years! There must have been moments even that afternoon when Daisy tumbled short of his dreams—not through her own fault, but because of the colossal vitality of his illusion. It had gone beyond her, beyond everything. He had thrown himself into it with a creative passion, adding to it all the time, decking it out with every bright feather that drifted his way. No amount of fire or freshness can challenge what a man will store up in his ghostly heart.

My first temptation is to complain about the theme of book and how it seems to keep occurring in several books I’ve read lately. Two people meet; one or both fall intensely in love; something goes terribly wrong; and they wind up with other people only to meet again later—and what then? [Eugene Onegin; The Sea, The Sea; Ethan Frome; My Antonia; The Great Gatsby; Embers (to some extent)] The popular BBC show As Time Goes By has the same basic plot.

I’m beginning to find it tiresome. With Eugene Onegin there is this horrible, hurtful, Russian twist that makes it a great story. Charles Arrowby in The Sea, The Sea is so incredibly self deluded and arrogant the that story is interesting because of his character and the craziness that comes about. The one thing these stories all seem to have in common (except for As Time Goes By) is that when the two lovers come back together later, it ends badly—very badly.

I liked this quote: “There are only the pursued, the pursuing, the busy, and the tired.”

Much of the tension in this story revolves around the mysterious nature of Gatsby. Is he a good guy or not? Several times, our doubts are raised only to find out that he had been honest or had acted nobly. The aspect of this story that I appreciated the most was how well it showed the complicated nature of relationships. The dream of love versus the reality of love. Jay Gatsby is the dream; Tom Buchanan is the reality. Which is better? Fiction? Fact?

When prodded, Daisy cannot say that she never loved her husband. She did love Tom Buchanan—and she loved Gatsby too. Well, at least that’s honest. (But then, what is love?)

From simple beginnings, the plot becomes very complicated as far as the implications for its characters are concerned.

stratosphereNot too long ago, I was listening to an interview of one of my favorite authors, Mohsin Hamid. He said that one of the greatest perils for us and our society is nostalgia. That got me thinking—about my own life and about why this might be true for our species. Hamid made the point that it is especially dangerous to be nostalgic now because of the quickening pace of technology. The Great Gatsby seems to be in agreement—that nostalgia doesn’t do us any good.

Toward the end of the book, my own memories took hold—a solitary meeting in an empty ornate train station, sitting on a bus next to someone important and waiting, just waiting, insecurities, awe, confusion, the awkward hug, the unheld hand. It seems that Mohsin Hamid was right.

The warm nights of Las Vegas are sure to fix what ails. Seeing my father. The Eiffel Tower. I’m certain that my natural instincts will prevent me from throwing myself off the Stratosphere (even tied to a rope), but I have plans to lean over the edge and look down. Vegas will be fun to experience after the glitter and glam of Gatsby.

I really liked this book, and I’m glad I read it again. It takes some patience—for me, it wasn’t until page 79 that the story took hold. I still don’t recommend it for teenagers.

I haven’t seen the movie. Now that I like the book, I’m not sure I will.

Sir Duke

I’m going on vacation and will be unresponsive for a while. Until I get back, I’m leaving you with my favorite song. This is a song that was popular when I was a kid and always made me feel happy:

The Little Prince

Cover of "The Little Prince"

Cover of The Little Prince

By Antoine de Saint-Exupéry; Mariner Books, Houghton Mifflin Harcourt; @1943; 101 pages.

I read The Little Prince when I was a child—and hated it. The boa constrictor swallowing the elephant put me off on page one. I got really caught up on the plight of that elephant. How cruel to have him swallowed on the first page. We need to get him out. Now!

I was too young for this book. I remember that I argued with everything the author presented. Was I a horrible child?

The best excuse I can offer is that my mother raised me on her own. With suitors coming and going, I developed a keen suspicion of any attempt to gain my trust or good will. So when Saint-Exupéry tries to identify with me on kid terms, explaining that he sees things like I do, that he’s writing from a child’s point of view (and certainly not in agreement with the often erring adults), he lost me. I was on to him. What was next? Was he going to grab me by my ankles and toss me into the air repeatedly until I socked him in the jaw?

Since then, a couple of people have said this is their favorite book—of all time!

My silent response has been: really???? But when someone identifies a favorite book or author, I tend to notice. I have to know why.

So I purchased The Little Prince through iTunes and read it on my iPod.

As an adult, the first thing I notice, oddly enough, is a number: 1943. This was the date of the book’s first publication and an important number for me.

The story goes something like this. The little prince has left his home planet, which is very small. There was a unique flower there that somehow went to his planet as a seed and grew there, but she was foreign to that planet.

She was very vain and had all sorts of requirements. The prince grew weary with her and disillusioned and decided to leave the planet and her forever. As he left, she admitted that she loved him. She said it was her fault for never letting him know. (Had he ever told her about his feelings for her?)

The prince then travels to other planets. On one of them, he finds a lonely king. I suppose the king’s planet is also pretty small and he is glad to finally have a subject, our little prince. To get the prince to stay with him, the king offers the prince a position as a minister of justice. The prince points out that there is no one to judge, since the king is the only person on his planet. The king offers that the prince can judge himself. That’s the hardest person to judge anyway. But the prince says he can judge himself anywhere. He doesn’t need to live on the planet with the king.

Well, well! the king said. “I have good reason to believe that there is an old rat living somewhere on my planet. I hear him at night. You could judge that old rat. From time to time you will condemn him to death. That way his life will depend on your justice. But you’ll pardon him each time for economy’s sake. There’s only one rat.

Then the little prince visits Earth. He lands in the desert. When asked why he came, he answers that he was having trouble with a flower. He is lonely and wanders upon a fox. The little prince wants to know if the fox will be his friend. The fox says no because he’s not tamed.

“For me you’re only a little boy just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you have no need of me, either. For you I’m only a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, we’ll need each other. You’ll be the only boy in the world for me. I’ll be the only fox in the world for you…”

“…The only things you learn are the things you tame,” said the fox. “People haven’t time to learn anything. They buy things ready-made in stores. But since there are no stores where you can buy friends, tame me!”

Then the fox says this: “Here is my secret. It’s quite simple: One sees clearly only with the heart. Anything essential is invisible to the eyes.”

A long time ago a French girl informed me that the young man I liked so much was “wild.” This was such an odd idea for me. What did she mean? He must have liked her quite a bit because he often hung around with her. Even to my jealous eye, I couldn’t see why. And here she knew this detail about him that I had never guessed, that he was wild. Did she mean that he formed no ties? That he was not in the habit of taking on responsibilities? That he would have no friends?

“What makes the desert beautiful is that it hides a well somewhere…”

“…whether it’s a house [and it's hidden treasure], the stars [the lost flower], or the desert [the hidden well], what makes them beautiful is invisible!”

And then: “you risk tears if you let yourself be tamed.”

It’s really odd, but I get the meaning of this book in a way I never had before. The little prince will return to the stars, but because he won’t point out which star he is returning to, his friend (our narrator) will forever find significance in all the stars. Every star will remind him of the little prince, just as every visitor from England reminds me of one particular friend and every smart ass remark reminds me of another.

[Saint-Exupéry wrote several successful novels, including Night Flight; Wind, Sand, and Stars; Flight to Arras; and Letter to a Hostage. He was a pilot and flew missions in World War II. In July of 1944, he set out to fly over occupied France. He never returned.]

Writing Playlist

Manu Chao—Desaparecido

Tallest Man on Earth—The King of Spain

Pepe and The Bottle Blondes—Lo Dudo

Pepe and The Bottle Blondes—Cuentame Que Te Paso


The first time I heard this song, it hit me like a ton of bricks. It’s so over the top—or, is it spot on?

Jack White—Love Interruption

ДДТ—Прекрасная любовь

Tallest Man on Earth—Where Do My Bluebird Fly

Manu Chao—Clandestino

Juanes—La Camisa Negra

Shakira—Estoy aquí

Another Bullshit Night in Suck City

Cover of "Another Bullshit Night in Suck ...

Cover of Another Bullshit Night in Suck City

By Nick Flynn @ 2004 by W.W. Norton & Company, Inc.; 347 pages.

An estimated 3.5 million people experience homelessness in the United States in a given year.  Another Bullshit Night in Suck City, gives us insight into that way of life.

This is the story of Nick Flynn, a caseworker at a homeless shelter in Boston, who wound up running into his estranged father as one of his “customers.” It is the recipient of the PEN/Martha Albrand Award for Memoir and was on the list of books I was encouraged to read in grad school.

Flynn’s memoir, is very well written, and at times, poetic. He does a wonderful job creating scenes and reflecting. His pacing is good. Timing is good. Structure—good.

Flynn is a sympathetic character. I respect his ability to hold it together as well as his literary accomplishment, and I can relate to the internal turmoil he feels about a parent who doesn’t always do as society expects.

I’m not sure I understand why Flynn didn’t offer his father a place to live—with Flynn. At the same time, I feel like I should understand this, knowing how hard it would be for me to live with either of my parents. All the same, with the stakes so high, I’m not sure how I would react given a similar situation.

Mental illness is a tough one, not to be taken lightly, not to be passed on. It’s hard to admit it when someone you love is afflicted. Intelligence offers no immunity, and surprisingly, increases the risk.

Another Bullshit Night in Suck City is an honest, brave examination of a very difficult and complex family situation. I’ll be keeping it close, trying to learn from it. I recommend it to anyone who has their own parental problems (few of us don’t) and/or wants to learn the craft of memoir.

Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas

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By Hunter S. Thompson; Vintage Books; @1971; 204 pages.

Since I’m soon to be off to Las Vegas to see my father on Father’s Day—and to experience this iconic city, I thought it would be appropriate to read Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. I’ve heard about this book (and movie) for years, but somehow never got around to it, sort of how I never got around to Las Vegas.

Like Thompson, I am in search of the American Dream. I want to know what the American Dream means to me.

Hunter S. Thompson (and Jack Kerouac) would have us believe that the American Dream is about taking what you can get. There is an absence of responsibility and a love of indulgence. (Look at Las Vegas—enormous fountains of water in the desert dancing with lights.)

If the drug culture scene bothers you, don’t read this book.

So, on a sleepy Sunday morning (cue Johnny Cash music which might have been appropriate but was never referenced in the book), while the cold Spring wind whips through the trees and cancels out any warmth the sun could possibly offer, the following paragraph, the first paragraph in fact, makes me chuckle:

We were somewhere around Barstow on the edge of the desert when the drugs began to take hold. I remember saying something like “I feel a bit lightheaded; maybe you should drive…” And suddenly there was a terrible roar all around us and the sky was full of what looked like huge bats, all swooping and screeching and diving around the car, which was going about a hundred miles and hour with the top down to Las Vegas.

Our protagonist, Raoul Duke, is on his way to Las Vegas to write a news story about the Mint 400, “the richest off-the-road race for motorcycles and dune-buggies in the history of organized sport.”

I won’t give the details of what was in the trunk of his car. Suffice it to say that he and his attorney were very thorough:

The only way to prepare for a trip like this, I felt, was to dress up like human peacocks and get crazy, then screech off across the desert and cover the story.

From there the story descends into drug-addled mischief. I thought the part about the hitchhiker was outstanding. The voice of the novel was strong. Whereas Keroac really put me off with his irresponsibility, with Thompson, it’s somehow forgivable, understandable, and endearing. I think this is because throughout the book, there is the thread of personal reflection that this might not really be the best way to behave, but since he has chosen this path, he’s going to do his best—to excel. The guy is an overachiever in this realm. Maybe that’s what I like. He’s no slacker once he’s chosen his course.

By the end of the book, Raoul Duke has broken every Vegas rule: burning the locals, abusing the tourists, and terrifying the help.

Except for the strength of the narrator’s voice, I don’t see much reason to read this book. It was ok, but that’s not quite enough these days.

I’m not sure this book got me much closer to the American Dream; I don’t really have that much hope for Vegas either, but maybe. Here’s a quote from the end of the book that I thought would be interesting to ponder, or come back to:

…This was the fatal flaw of Tim Leary’s trip. He crashed around America selling “consciousness expansion” without ever giving a thought to the grim meat-hook realities that were lying in wait for all the people who took him too seriously….But their [acid freaks] loss and failure is ours, too. What Leary took down with him was the central illusion of a whole life-style that he helped to create…a generation of permanent cripples, failed seekers, who never understood the essential old-mystic fallacy of the Acid Culture: the desperate assumption that somebody—or at least some force—is tending that Light at the end of the tunnel.

In the middle of reading the book, I watched the movie. Even though I enjoyed Johnny Depp’s performance, I don’t recommend the movie. The book somehow was less offensive.

Brené Brown’s TED Talk

TED (conference)

TED (conference) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I am getting slightly addicted to TED Talks and recently listened to a TED podcast about making mistakes. Since I’m an editor and a proofreader, my whole job revolves around catching other people’s mistakes, telling these people about what I found, and giving them the opportunity to fix what I think are errors. In doing so, I try not to shame them, but I’m battling their old scripts from English teachers of years gone by. Sometimes, I sense that my job is much more about taking care of people than it is about enforcing good grammar.

It’s not easy.

Also, I am required to make no mistakes myself. For obvious reasons—it’s a little hard to hold yourself out as the catcher of mistakes when you yourself make them—and I do—and plenty.

I am also a supervisor of two very good editors. I have to tell the people who report to me about their mistakes. And, I need to make it easy for them to tell me about mine.

So, when I heard about a TED talk that was all about mistakes, I was excited. I was fairly certain this would be information I could use. And it was pretty much what you would expect: that everyone makes mistakes and that mistakes are necessary for learning. I was listening with a normal level of interest until I came to the segment about Brené Brown, a sociologist who gave a TED Talk in Houston. What she had to say really got my attention.

“Being vulnerable is essential to whole-hearted living.”

We numb vulnerability, but because we cannot selectively numb, when we numb vulnerability, we also numb joy, gratitude, and happiness.

But, vulnerability is not weakness. Brown believes that this myth is profoundly dangerous. She believes that vulnerability is our most accurate measurement of courage.

So for example, vulnerability is picking up the phone when someone has just been through something tragic or traumatic and being there for them. Vulnerability is reaching out when you need help and asking someone—hey, could you take the time to listen to me; hey my mother just died, can we talk; hey I think I have a serious medical condition, could you help me through what I’m going through? Or saying: things in my life are going really wrong and I don’t know what to do and could you help me?

That’s vulnerability. Vulnerability is not over-sharing. It’s not blasting out on Facebook that you had a terrible day or how you were mistreated as a child, etc. It’s making that connection with an individual; or trying to. Vulnerability is letting someone know that you care about them to your core and then seeing what that information means to them.

Vulnerability is emotional risk, uncertainty, exposure. Vulnerability, also says Brown, is the birthplace of all creativity. That’s the work connection. You have to be safe enough to know that you can throw out a wrong answer without your professional reputation being flushed down the toliet and all faith in your ability lost.

And, in both my personal and professional life, it became clear to me I had been doing this. I had been making myself vulnerable. And, now I’ve been feeling a little like I’ve been run over by a truck—and understandably so. I had been courageous, and I had found out why this kind of courage makes you vulnerable. It’s because sometimes, the answer is “no.” Sometimes when you reach out for help, it isn’t there. Sometimes, people won’t let you be safe. They don’t have your interests at heart. Sometimes they don’t care. And sometimes, you will be shamed.

Afterward, not only did I wish I hadn’t made myself so vulnerable, but I wished I had thought things through a little more. If only I had just…

But, it was no use. And there are rewards to being vulnerable—although at the time it didn’t feel that way. The rewards were that I found out how little I mattered to these people who mattered so greatly to me. That I was wrong in who I chose to care about. And with that knowledge, I had the power to start changing my thoughts and redirecting my energy. With that knowledge, I now had more information to make decisions that were important to me.

Shame, says Brown, comes from secrecy, silence, and judgment.

The anecdote to shame is empathy, saying yeah, me too.

I think that what Brown didn’t say, although it is also true, is that bravery doesn’t mean the absence of fear. Bravery happens when there is fear and heroic action is taken anyway. So feeling weak might not mean that you are weak.

My takeaway is that being vulnerable allows you to obtain information that you wouldn’t otherwise have and can save you a heck of a lot of time. For my personal life, well, I don’t talk to those people anymore. What was it about me? (shame) Or, what was it about them? (their shame) The point is that life is short and it isn’t necessary to know everything. It’s just necessary to avoid those people who are toxic, and if they voluntarily remove themselves from your life—bonus. You got really lucky.

The takeaway that I think Brown wants us to have is that vulnerability is a good thing and we can help others recover from shame, and we should do this when we can.

Vasily Grossman, Everything Flows

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Reading Vasily Grossman’s novel, Life and Fate, about the battle of Stalingrad and the lives of the people who fought there, was an outstanding experience for me.  I also was impressed by his World War II journalism collected – along with memoirs and reminiscences by others – in A writer at War with the Red Army. Grossman wrote Everything Flows after the rejection and confiscation of Life and Fate.

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Number of words in a novel and another list

I love lists and am always intrigued by “must read” book lists. Have I read “the right” books? Have I read “the necessary” books? So this morning as I was writing my morning pages, I started to wonder how many words are in a novel. I did a quick search and found an interesting article in the Huffington Post: Average Book Length: Guess How Many Words are in a Novel.

They included a great list! What I like so much about this list is that it was created to show one thing, but also shows another. It was created to give us an idea of how many words are in various novels, but while doing so has picked out famous novels that we’ll recognize. So, it is, at least to me, a “to read” book list as well.

  • Animal Farm: 29,966 words
  • Ethan Frome: 30,191 words
  • The Crying of Lot 49: 46,573 words
  • Slaughterhouse-Five 5: 47,192 words
  • We Have Always Lived in the Castle: 53, 510 words
  • Lord of the Flies: 62, 481 words
  • Brave New World: 64,531 words
  • The Adventures of Tom Sawyer: 70,570 words
  • Portnoy’s Complaint: 78,535 words
  • Lolita: 112,473 words
  • Madame Bovary: 117,963 words
  • Mansfield Park: 159,344 words
  • Moby Dick: 209,117 words
  • East of Eden: 226,741 words
  • Ulysses: 262,869 words
  • Middlemarch: 310,593 words
  • War and Peace: 544,406 words

I think the average comes out to around 64,000 words. I think I enjoy novels that are more on the short side. Although I loved Anna Karenina, so I guess if you use a lot of words, they better mean something.

My challenge to myself starting today is to write 2,000 words a day for the next 32 days. I’ll worry about editing later. Join me if you want and let me know how it goes. It can be any style. It can even be several styles. Completely disjointed is what I’m trying for. The bar is low. The only requirement is to show up.

Happy writing!

Anna Karenina

Cover of "Anna Karenina (Oprah's Book Clu...

Cover of Anna Karenina (Oprah’s Book Club)

By Leo Tolstoy; Translated by Richard Pevear and Larissa Volokhonsky; @ 2000 by Penguin Classics; First appeared serially from 1875 to 1877; 817 pages.

Anna Karenina is an 817-page study of the consequences of adultery. But it isn’t just about adultery; it’s also social commentary on everything from marriage, maternal love, having children, the education of the workers, farming practices, faith, and the moral implications of not actually working for a living. It’s about human relationships, love, birth, and death. Tolstoy forces us to look at Anna, the adulteress, as a person. He keeps us from judging her out of hand. He shows us the terrible consequences of choosing security over love and then again of choosing love over security. And he shows us all the jealousy, insecurity, and fickleness involved in human relationships.

Anna Karenina is set against the backdrop of the Russian aristocracy in the 1800s. Tolstoy provides great insights into human nature that ring true even today, more than 100 years later. He explains that some adulterous liaisons were excused by society while others were not.

The story is wonderfully crafted (for the most part—I felt like the ending was tacked on) and easy to read. None of the explicit details are given that modern readers are accustomed to. It’s all very classy. Tolstoy very subtly gets the point across on page 149, saying simply “…this desire had been satisfied.” With the romance out of the way early on, let the tortuous tale begin.

Count Leo Tolstoy was born in 1828 on the family estate of Yasnaya Polyana in the Tula province of Russia. He studied oriental languages and law but did not complete a degree. He faught in the Crimean War and afterwards wrote Sevastopol Sketches in 1855. He married at the age of 34 to Sofya Andreyevna Behrs, and together they had thirteen children. For much of his life, Tolstoy was active in efforts to educate and emancipate the serfs. His most well known novels are War and Peace (1869) and Anna Karinina (1877).

Leo Tolstoy 1848

Leo Tolstoy 1848 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Anna Karenina is a novel written in eight parts and told through the omniscient narrator. With this format, Tolstoy is able to explore the thoughts and motivations of all his characters. The story begins in Moscow, Russia. Prince Stepan Arkadyich Oblonsky’s affair with a former French governess has been found out by his wife, Dolly. Stepan’s married sister, Anna Karenina, who lives in St. Petersburg has been summoned to his house to console his wife and put their marriage back together. Meanwhile, Stepan has two friends, Konstantin Dmitrych Levin and Count Alexei Krillovich Vronsky, who are rival suitors for the same young lady, Kitty Tcherbatsky. Kitty is Dolly’s sister.

(Confused? You won’t be once you get going.) To get it all started, Tolstoy puts Vronsky’s mother and Anna Karenina in the same train car to Moscow from Petersburg.

The biggest problem for the western reader not used to Russian naming conventions is keeping track of the names and nicknames. If you can get that straight, this novel is smooth sailing. The translators, Richard Pevear and Larissa Volokhonsky, have done a fantastic job.

The first thing that struck me about the story was how unfair Stepan Arkadyich’s (Prince Oblonsky’s) view of his wife, Dolly, was.

He could not be repentant that he, a thirty-four-year-old, handsome, amorous man, did not feel amorous with his wife, the mother of five living and two dead children, who was only a year younger than he.

So this guy is older than his wife, and yet she is too old for him, now that she has “done her womanly duty” and given him seven children!

It even seemed to him that she, a worn-out, aged, no longer beautiful woman, not remarkable for anything, simple, merely a kind mother of a family, ought in all fairness to be indulgent.

Oblonsky’s friend Konstantin Levin, seems the opposite of the other men in this story. Tolstoy described Levin’s love for eighteen-year-old Kitty in a very charming way:

He [Levin] knew she was there by the joy and fear that overwhelmed his heart. She stood at the other end of the rink, talking to a lady. There seemed to be nothing very special in her dress, nor in her pose; but for Levin she was as easy to recognize in a crowd as a rose among nettles.

I love this too for being such an accurate description of love, or I suppose, of infatuation:

He stepped down, trying not to look long at her, as if she were the sun, yet he saw her, like the sun, even without looking.

Л. Н.Толстой рассказывает сказку внукам. 1909

Л. Н.Толстой рассказывает сказку внукам. 1909 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Tolstoy writes about the younger generation rebelling against the norms of the older generation. The previous generation had consented to having their marriages arranged by their parents. This generation was moving away from that practice. More and more young people were arranging their own marriages. To that end, I love this description of Kitty’s mother’s feelings on the topic:

And however much the princess [Kitty’s mother] was assured that in our time young people themselves must settle their fate, she was unable to believe it, as she would have been unable to believe that in anyone’s time the best toys for five-year-old children would be loaded pistols.

And yet, Kitty’s mother’s interference caused much grief.

This novel turns around the love affair that develops between Anna Karenina and Count Vronsky. It must have been shocking reading indeed, for not only is Anna married to man with whom she has a son, it also seems that she might be older than Count Vronsky. Tolstoy illustrated for us from the beginning how Russian society viewed wives who were even slightly younger than their husbands—as unattractive throwaways who should be understanding of their diminishing status. I love how he pushes this social value when he sets up Anna with Vronsky.

Early on, we suspect that Anna may be getting in over her head as Vronsky’s views of love are a bit liberal even by today’s standards:

In his Petersburg world, all people were divided into two completely opposite sorts. One was the inferior sort: the banal, stupid, and above all, ridiculous people who believed that one husband should live with one wife, whom he has married in church, that a girl should be innocent, a woman modest, a man manly, temperate and firm, that one should raise children, earn one’s bread, pay one’s debts, and other such stupidities. This was an old-fashioned and ridiculous sort of people. But there was another sort of people, the real ones, to which they all belonged, and for whom one had, above all, to be elegant, handsome, magnanimous, bold, gay, to give oneself to every passion without blushing and laugh at everything else.

And this is Vronsky’s friend’s opinion of why people get married:

For this there exists one means of loving conveniently, without hindrance—that is marriage…it’s as if you’re carrying a fardeau (burden) and doing something with your hands is only possible if the fardeau is tied to your back—and that is marriage. And I felt it once I got married. I suddenly had my hands free. But dragging this fardeau around without marriage—that will make your hands so full that you won’t be able to do anything.

Anna’s husband is onto her straying feelings immediately. Tolstoy is wonderfully wise about this:

She [Anna] looked at him [her husband], so gaily, that no one who did not know her as her husband did could have noticed anything unnatural either in the sound or in the meaning of her words. But for him who knew her, who knew that when he went to bed five minutes late, she noticed it and asked the reason, who knew that she told him at once her every joy, happiness, or grief—for him it meant a great deal to see now that she did not want to notice his state or say a word about herself. He saw that the depth of her soul, formerly always open to him, was now closed to him.

Anna’s husband, Alexei Alexandrovich, is twenty years older than she. He doesn’t seem capable of passionate love, but we see that he does love her. He would rather ignore the whole thing, save his reputation, and keep Anna as his wife. One can see that they are fundamentally a bad match. Alexei, with all his flaws, eventually becomes a sympathetic character, at least to me.

He felt that he could not divert people’s hatred from himself, because the reason for that hatred was not that he was bad (then he could have tried to be better), but that he was shamefully and repulsively unhappy. For that, for the very fact that his heart was wounded, they would be merciless towards him; people would destroy him, as dogs kill a wounded dog howling with pain.

As much as this story is about Anna Karenina and her love affair with Count Vronsky, it is also the story of Konstatin Dmitryich Levin and his love for Kitty Tcherbatsky. Levin seems to symbolize all that is good in men. He lives in the country, mows the grass with a scythe along with the muzhiks, and wants nothing more than to have a loving family. He is also a good tool for Tolstoy’s exploration of the pros and cons of the education of the muzhiks and the rise of a working class.

One really big hole in the story, for me, was the absence of Levin’s reaction to Anna’s death. He has only met her once, but his awareness of Count Vronsky has been high throughout the story. He was charmed by Anna when he met her. It seems really odd that we don’t get Levin’s take on either Anna or Vronsky at the end of the story. Levin becomes consumed with the idea of death and the meaning of life. One can infer that this is one of the consequences from Anna’s death, but with the omniscient narrator, it seems that Tolstoy missed a big opportunity to draw the whole thing together.

At the end, we also get insights into faith. Levin is not a believer at the beginning of the story. His view of the universe and how it operates could be summed up as follows:

In infinite time, in the infinity of matter, in infinite space, a bubble-organism separates itself, and that bubble holds out for a while and then bursts, and that bubble is—me.

But later, he has an epiphany. People must live for goodness, live for the soul, and that goodness is revealed by God.

If the good has a cause, it is no longer the good; if it has a consequence—a reward—it is also not the good. Therefore the good is outside the chain of cause and effect.

He also makes the argument that faith and love are outside the bounds of reason.

Yes, what I know, I do not know by reason, it is given to me, it is revealed to me, and I know it by my heart, by faith in that main thing that the Church confesses.

…faith in God, in the good, as the sole purpose of man.

At over 800 pages, I was prepared to trudge through this novel. It was quite a relief to find it so engaging. I came away from this book wanting to throw out all my Russian novels and re-buy them as translated by Richard Pevear and Larissa Volokhonsky. They did a brilliant job.

A New Earth: Awakening Your Life’s Purpose

A New Earth

A New Earth (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

By Eckhart Tolle; A Plume Book; @2005; 313 pages.

I read this a while back when it first came out, and thought it was ok—I don’t think I was awakened. I opened it up again to see if maybe this time would be different.

The first thing that surprised me was how fast I zipped through it. I can’t pinpoint where the content was particularly compelling, but one word seamlessly led to another and away I went!

Toward the beginning, Tolle says that mankind is in the process of awakening. This book isn’t meant to convince, it’s meant to awaken.

You cannot fight against the ego and win, just as you cannot fight against darkness. The light of consciousness is all that is necessary. You are that light.

[I'm feeling better already.]

Tolle gets my attention when he says this: “The first part of that truth is the realization that the ‘normal’ state of mind of most human beings contains a strong element of what we might call dysfunction or even madness.”

He goes on to say: “Certain teachings at the heart of Hinduism perhaps come closest to seeing this dysfunction as a form of collective mental illness. They call it maya, the veil of delusion.”

“According to Buddha, the human mind in its normal state generates dukkha [not to be confused with dookie—my words, not his, but still fitting, I think], which can be translated as suffering, unsatisfactoriness, or just plain misery.”

The great Indian sage, Ramana Maharshi, says: “The mind is maya.”

[My mind is maya.]

Tolle says that “sin” is a word that is greatly misunderstood. “Literally translated from the ancient Greek in which the New Testament was written, to sin means to miss the mark, as an archer who misses the target, so to sin means to miss the point of human existence. It means to live unskillfully, blindly, and thus to suffer and cause suffering.

Science and technology have magnified the destructive  impact that the dysfunction, that collective insanity, can be most clearly recognized. A further factor is that this dysfunction is actually intensifying and accelerating.

And…

Another aspect of the collective dysfunction of the human mind is the unprecedented violence that humans are inflicting on other life forms and the planet itself—the destruction of oxygen-producing forests and other plant and animal life; ill-treatment of animals in factory farms; and poisoning of rivers, oceans, and air. Driven by greed, ignorant of their connectedness to the whole, humans persist in behavior that, if continued unchecked, can only result in their own destruction.

In our destruction. I like how Tolle sets himself apart: “in their own destruction.” Almost out of harm’s way.

Tolle says: “If the history of humanity were the clinical case history of a single human being, the diagnosis would have to be: chronic paranoid delusions, a pathological propensity to commit murder and acts of extreme violence and cruelty against his perceived ‘enemies’ —his own unconsciousness projected outward.”

Who is this Tolle guy anyway?

The back of the book says he is a contemporary spiritual teacher who travels extensively. The inside cover doesn’t reveal much more. An enigma, I suppose. Is “traveling extensively” credential enough to diagnose the collective of humanity with insanity? Sure, I was thinking it too, but I’m just a wabbit who has only traveled marginally.

Reading on…Gautama Siddharth (Buddha) is said to be the first to come to this conclusion, 2,600 years ago in India. Or, maybe it was China’s Lao Tzu, author of Tao Te Ching.

I admit, I’m liking Tolle. He doesn’t hide behind “culture” to excuse suffering. He is a proponent of self evaluation and change.

He says that through organized religions, people “could make themselves ‘right’ and others ‘wrong’ and thus define their identity through their enemies, the ‘others,’ the ‘nonbelievers’ or the ‘wrong believers’ who not infrequently they saw themselves justified in killing.”

A dim little light came on for me when I read the following paragraph:

He [Jean-Paul Sartre] looked at Descartes’ statement “I think, therefore I am” very deeply and suddenly realized, in his own words, “The consciousness that says ‘I am’ is not the consciousness that thinks.” What did he mean by that? When you are aware that you are thinking, that awareness is not part of thinking. It is a different dimension of consciousness. And it is that awareness that says “I am.” If there were nothing but thought in you, you wouldn’t even know you are thinking. You would be like a dreamer who doesn’t know he’s dreaming. You as identified with every thought as the dreamer is with every image in the dream. Many people still live like that, like sleepwalkers, trapped in old dysfunctional mind-sets that continuously re-create the same nightmarish reality. When  you know you are dreaming, you are awake within the dream. Another dimension of consciousness has come in.

Tolle explains that complaining works to strengthen the ego (not a good thing) and when someone or something is wrong and you recognize that, it makes you feel you are right. Tolle echos the ideas expressed by Dostoevsky when he says that “by far the greater part of violence that humans have inflicted on each other is not the work of criminals or the mentally deranged, but of normal, respectable citizens in the service of the collective ego.”

Here “normal” equates to “insane.” And what lies at the root of insanity? “Complete identification with thought and emotion, that is to say, ego.”

While reading this, I continue to think back to my questions regarding the economy of New Guinea and how it was disrupted by discovery by the outside world in the book Lost in Shangri-La. My question was, and is, is war really necessary? Economically? Also, I can’t help but think about recent news events. The two brothers who devastated so many lives in Boston, but also ruined their own. And for what? For ego? In the service of their unconscious pain body? What could they have hoped to accomplish with that act? It makes no sense to me. I see the face of that 19 year old and my heart goes out to his parents, and yes, to him as well. What happened? I want so much to think he didn’t do it and we have convicted him too soon (outside the courts), but then if it wasn’t him, it was someone. Someone did this. But why? And how?

Tolle has this to offer:

A collective ego manifests the same characteristics as the personal ego, such as the need for conflict and enemies, the need for more, the need to be right against others who are wrong, and so on. Sooner or later, the collective will come into conflict with other collectives, because it unconsciously seeks conflict and it needs opposition to define its boundary and thus its identity.

Tolle’s discussion of the pain body and how it feeds the ego is interesting. I think I struggle with some of this stuff. I liked and identified with what he had to say about time:

Time is what the ego lives on. The stronger the ego, the more time takes over your life. Almost every thought you think is then concerned with past or future, and your sense of self depends on the past for your identity and on the future for its fulfillment.

The main way to disable the ego, according to Tolle, is to accept what is and what comes, regardless of whether your reaction makes a judgement of good or bad.  Since the ego identifies with stuff, it would also seem that cutting back on one’s belongings might help. But Tolle doesn’t say this. It’s just my idea.

As I read Tolle, I slip into a reverie of what life might be like to live closer to nature, with significantly fewer belongings and significantly fewer obligations. Would my world be enlarged or depleted? And my ego?

To awaken from the dream is our purpose now. When we are awake within the dream, the ego-created earthdrama comes to an end and the more benign and wondrous dream arises. This is the new earth.

This is a lot for my Western mind to take in. But if I understand Tolle correctly, the idea is to be present in each moment. Experience “now,” no matter what is happening now. Right now, you are reading my blog. There is a strange temporal relationship between my thoughts and yours. I am communicating with you from the past. You are reading my thoughts in your now. I am thinking about your actions and reactions in my future.

When I picked up this book, I came to it with the assumption that everyone’s life purpose is different. But not so per Tolle. Everyone has the same internal purpose in life—that is to awaken. Awakening means to be able to distinguish between the constant inner dialog we all experience—thoughts—and ourselves as the thinkers. Basically, we are not our thoughts. If your purpose is anything other than that, it will be thwarted by time and will eventually result in sadness.

So, curing cancer, ending poverty, building a fortune—anything of that nature no matter how altruistic, is the work of the ego. Anything you are doing in the present moment is your purpose, even if you’re sharpening a pencil. When you move on to something else, that will be your external purpose. And so forth. The point is to be conscious of what you are as you do whatever it is. Tolle says that whatever you do you should do it in a state of acceptance, enthusiasm, or enjoyment; otherwise, stop doing it.

Joking aside, I recommend this book for anyone having a problem with excess seriousness. It’s a lot of food for thought. I’m not sure I got it all. When I was in college and having a rough day, I would often go to a certain fountain and stare at the water. My mind would clear and peace would descend. Sort of like a serving of broccoli, everyone probably needs a serving of peace, so many grams a day.

The Zone: A Prison Camp Guard’s Story

The ZoneBy Sergei Dovlatov; Translated by Anne Frydman; Russian edition @1982; English edition @1984; My edition @2011; Counterpoint Press; 182 pages.

Perhaps Dovlatov is the Soviet version of George Carlin, sans the vulgar tirades and the four letter words.

Here is the introductory statement by the author:

The names, events, and dates given here are all real. I invented only those details that were not essential.

Therefore, any resemblance between the characters in this book and living people is intentional and malicious. And all the fictionalizing was unexpected and accidental.

Dovlatov always had an excellent structure for his books. In The Compromise, it was a series of increasingly absurd compromises. In The Suitcase, the chapters were organized by what he found in his suitcase and the relevance of each item to his life.

In this book, Dovlatov has come to America. He has written the book, The Zone, while still in the USSR, but couldn’t risk taking it with him when he left. As a result, several of his friends have smuggled small parts of the book out while traveling to various places in the free world. Dovlatov is now trying to reassemble his book. The serious content of The Zone is tempered by Dovlatov’s letters to his editor talking about his current life in the U.S. and commenting on the manuscript he is now submitting in parts.

As one might imagine, being a prison guard was pretty horrible not to mention shocking at times.

Awful things happened around me. People reverted to an animal state. We lost our human aspect—being hungry, humiliated, tortured by fear.

young dovlatovThis is the darkest of Dovlatov’s books. But while dark, it still contains his philosophical bent which I enjoy so much. I thought his strategy for dealing with his job was very interesting:

I felt better than could have been expected. I began to have a divided personality. Life was transformed into literary material…I began to think of myself in the third person.

Dovlatov says he doesn’t agree with the ancients—that a sound body means a sound mind. Instead, he says that people who are physically healthy are most often spiritually blind and morally apathetic.

He says he was very healthy.

Since the time of Aristotle, the human brain has not changed. What is more, human consciousness has not changed.

Dovlatov rails against not being able to get his work published in the Soviet Union, but really, what did he expect when he said things like this:

… a prison camp is a pretty accurate representation of a country in miniature, the Soviet state in particular. Within a camp, you have a dictatorship of the proletariat (which is to say, the camp administration), the people (the prisoners), and the police (guards).

Dovlatov says that literature has historically portrayed the prisoner/guard relationship in one of two ways. Either the prisoners are to be pitied or the guards are. To him, both views are wrong:

Almost any prisoner would have been suited to the role of a guard. Almost any guard deserved a prison term.

For anyone wanting to read Dovlatov, I wouldn’t start with this book. Even though I really liked the book and appreciated what Dovlatov had to say and his characteristic humor, I’m not sure I would have been so compelled to keep reading him if I had started here. (The order I suggest? The Compromise, The Suitcase, A Foreign Woman, The Zone.)

So has the spell been broken? (Will I be rushing out to buy more D?)

Well, as I finish this book, I think about how jaded and disillusioned a person might become after having similar experiences. Here is a man who didn’t graduate from university. He trained as a heavyweight boxer. He saw horrific things and experienced ongoing fear.

Yet, through it all, (not having had everything given to him, not having had a pampered existence and the best education, freedom for travel throughout his life, money, etc.) through it all, he retained his humanity. He retained his capacity for mercy and compassion. How did he do this? Do these kinds of circumstances breed empathy and emotional maturity?

It makes you think, especially on days like today with all the crazy news stories—the Boston Marathon bombing, an NPR story about a company you can hire to get the kidnapping experience, and other more horrific things I don’t want to get into.

Lost in Shangri-La

A location map of New Guinea. Finschhafen is s...

A location map of New Guinea. Finschhafen is shown on the north-east coast, opposite New Britain. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

By Mitchell Zuckoff; Harper Perennial; @ 2011; 316 pages.

Almost as interesting as the story itself is that it was uprooted from the forgotten pages of history and brought back to life. While searching for something else, Mitchell Zuckoff, a professor of journalism at Boston University and a former reporter for the Boston Globe, came across an article about the plane crash of 24 U.S. Army servicemen and Women’s Army Corps (WACs) in an isolated valley in New Guinea. He set the story aside, but it continued to nag him. Over time, he discovered other related information, which grew and grew, until finally the story had to be written.

Based on interviews Zuckoff was able to obtain six decades after the crash, a daily journal kept during the time of the crash, and the rescue, scrapbooks, army documents, maps, radio transcripts, and details from the relatives of the three survivors, Lost in Shangri-La came alive as “a true story of survival, adventure, and the most incredible rescue mission of World War II.”

On May 13, 1945, Colonel Peter Prossen arranged an airplane joyride for some of his staff as a morale booster. Interest had been building about the mysterious valley untouched by civilization that they had recently discovered. Excitement and enthusiasm must have been high aboard the plane. Prossen left the cockpit to his less experienced copilot and joined the passengers to look out their windows and socialize. Clouds obscured the peaks which surrounded the valley, and the copilot discovered too late that he was flying straight into a mountain.

Zuckoff does a fantastic job telling this story. He researched all of the main players extensively and creates a lot of suspense by weaving their back stories into the progression of events that led to the rescue of the survivors. Zuckoff even traveled to New Guinea and interviewed the tribesmen and relatives of the tribesmen. The contrasting perspectives about what had happened and what it meant from the point of view of both the Americans and the tribesmen was fascinating.

It was also interesting to consider that as the outside “civilized” world was in engaged with all its technology and weaponry in World War II, the humans of this isolated valley had their own ongoing wars, just on a smaller scale. Bombs and planes were replaced here with sticks and axes.

The customs for women in this society were interesting. Whenever a male warrior died, his female relative would have one of her fingers cut off as part of her mourning ritual. Youch! By the time many women reached marriageable age, they were all thumbs.

After the war, Christian missionaries went to the valley, converted the natives, and convinced them to stop their ongoing wars. As a result, their independence diminished significantly. I thought that was interesting too, and it made me wonder in broader terms about why humans engage in war and the long-term consequences of doing so.

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I recently joined a book club and this was the book that was chosen. We met last Thursday at a coffee shop (not Starbucks) to discuss it. One person had prepared questions and the rest of us sat around a table. I think there were seven of us in all. This was the first book club I had ever attended, and I didn’t know what to expect.

I’m thinking to myself: Don’t talk too much. And then: Don’t talk too little!

One of the first questions was: Who was your favorite character?

One of the women liked the female tribal woman (queen?) who befriended Maggie. The rest of the women liked John McCollom, the twin who survived unscathed and led Maggie Hastings and Ken Decker to safety. They liked that he managed his grief on loosing his brother and kept a cool head. The one man in our group said he liked Ken Decker, the man who even though tremendously beat up in the crash still drug his mangled body down the mountain.  I think he really liked Maggie and was afraid to admit it in the midst of a bunch of women.

Me? The character who immediately came to my mind was the playboy soldier with the successful military father. He had wanted to participate in the war, but never got assigned, Captain Earl Walter, Jr.

The women teased me: Of course, you’d like the playboy.

Well, not of course. Yes he was 6’4″. And, yes, he was an All American Swimmer.

But this guy was willing to fly into a valley that no one knew how to fly out of—or get out of, for that matter. He knew the danger involved and motivated a team to go with him. He was the hero!!!!

Ok, so I didn’t agree with the group on that one.

Then someone says: I lost respect for Maggie when I heard that she was hitting on one of the medics.

Even if I believed that, which I don’t, I wouldn’t have lost respect for Maggie for that.

But let’s think this through. She was in a tremendously emotional situation. She had just witnessed 21 people that she knew die in a horrific firy plane crash. She herself had climbed down a mountain with burns on her feet and legs and face. For the first several days, there was no food to eat. No one knew how they would get out of the valley. Then her wounds got infected and developed gangrene.

What girl wouldn’t feel flirtatious under such circumstances?

So the medics come along and dose Maggie and Ken with antiseptic and remove the gangrene—but cutting the infected skin away from the their bodies. This took hours—of cutting.

Hmmm. Yeah. I don’t think so.

More likely is that the guy who wrote in his diary that Maggie was flirting too much was actually turned down by her. It wouldn’t be the first time a guy told a lie.

So, far, I’m not earning any points with the group.

Next question: What were they doing out there anyway? After all, there was a war going on.

—Uh, blowing off steam. Trying to have a little fun in a world full of misery!

—But people were dying!!!

—People are dying RIGHT NOW and we’re drinking coffee and eating muffins, arguing over a book!

(Maybe I’m not the book club sort.)

Next question: What did we think about the ultimate Western influence that came to the valley as a result of the plane crash?

—Yes, yes, simply terrible. We screwed up their war economy, and now they don’t cut the fingers off of little girls.

—But we can’t fault them for that. That was their culture.

—Just because it was part of their culture doesn’t mean it was right. Cultures throughout history have had practices that were not right. Like, oh, slavery. And the fingers were only cut off of the women and girls, even though they were tasked with doing all the chores and gardening around their homes.

—And they got by…

At this point, I think a blood vessel became noticeably visible on my forehead. I was O for 4, and I was starting to have flashbacks to what a former boss said to me after his retirement:

“You’ve got to go along to get along.”

I think he was trying to help me out and meant these as wise words. But I lost some respect for him the moment he said it.

Clearly, this is a skill I could cultivate.

The Suitcase

the suitcase dovlatovBy Sergei Dovlatov; Counterpoint Press; @ 1986; 129 pages.

The premise of The Suitcase is simple. Sergei Dovlatov finds the suitcase that he carried from the Soviet Union in the back of his closet in New York. Each chapter of the book tells the story behind each item he rediscovers inside.

I really like this structure. I’m trying to figure out how to “repurpose” it for my own needs. And, I really like Dovlatov. I’ll be reading along, interested enough to keep going, and then all of a sudden I’m laughing. It’s nice. It reminds me of Russia and the friends I met there, and makes me sorry I left and glad that I did at the same time.

I like how Dovlatov describes his relationship with his wife, Lena. He says the main things a wife should do for her husband are 1) feed him, 2) believe he is a genius, and 3) leave him alone. And she can’t just do one of these. She has to do all three. So I’m ticking off these things in my head. Am I doing my part? It was touching—for all his tough-guy rhetoric, you can tell he really loved his wife. The kind of love that is too real and painful to talk about.

Dovlatov died relatively young (not suicide—but what was it? I don’t know.), and it makes me really sad. But he left behind several books that I haven’t read. Buying them would mean breaking my rule of 1) not buying any more books until I have read the ones I already own, 2) have written my own story, or until 3) I’ve bought a potter’s wheel and a kiln.

Shop—check. Wood stove—check. Kiln—pending. Wheel—pending.

The New York Times said this about The Suitcase: “Readers will soar through the first two-thirds of this novel, then…stave off finishing it. The final chapters will be hoarded and cherished, doled out one at a time as a reward after a bad day.”

That’s exactly how I felt. I have a bad day, I reach for Dovlatov. That’s why I need to have enough on hand. Fed up with life? Lost your sense of humor? Take two Dovlatov’s and call me in the morning.

Wooded 5 acres in Blue Mountains for sale!

pristinesnowI’ve decided to streamline several things in my life, and selling 5.07 acres in Anatone, Washington, has risen to the top of the list.

This is a great get-away property up in the Blue Mountains of Washington. It’s close to the Umatilla National Forest and to a magnificent river called the Grande Rhonde. Packed with Ponderosa pine trees, it’s smells heavenly.

It’s been tested and has been shown to be a buildable site. It has a well and access to electricity and WiFi.

With a little money and elbow grease, this could be an awesome place for your inner hermit.

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Here is a link to the real estate listing:

http://lewiston.craigslist.org/reb/3689528668.html

It’s featured on the Rock-N-Roll Realty website.

MLS: 122405
Price: $50,000

The virtual tour of my property for sale in Anatone, Washington, is located at the longest link I’ve ever seen in my life, so I’m going to embed it here.

Some details on the writer of this blog

yellow birdOne of the things I’ve enjoyed most about blogging is learning about other bloggers and their lives. I enjoy seeing everyone’s photographs and wondering: what would it be like to hit the road and travel around Peru? Russia? Mongolia? Costa Rica? Mexico? Greece? India? Pakistan? Indonesia? Denmark? Australia? Romania?

I wonder what it would be like to live in a place where bananas grow everywhere!

I’m completely inspired by how some bloggers are able to communicate the story of their lives. Even through their pain, they are making art with every entry. I want to be that good. You really inspire me.

And then there are the artists. The ones who are working hard and drawing and posting their work. There is something about visual art that is so inspiring. It makes me happy.

And then, best of all. So many bloggers actually read other people’s blogs and think about them, and comment on them. And well, you guys are the heart of our community. I have told countless friends about my blog and only the ones who have stalking tendencies have read anything I’ve written, all in secret of course—never a comment, never any communication—and I suspect, with lots of judgment.

I told a “friend” at work: hey, look! I have followers. Strangers I don’t even know are willing to let my thoughts show up in their Feeder. Literature isn’t dead. People do still read!

And she says: how many followers? Are they real people?

It has been an odd revelation to me that even though I have worried about the risks of sharing too  much about myself online, that really, even if I posted everything conceivable, that these details would continue to exist in relative anonymity.

I’m a work-a-day wabbit. All work and no play makes Word Wabbit very dull indeed.

But, I’m not a lay down and die kind of wabbit. I’ve embarked on a regular exercise routine. An amazing blogger in Peru has gotten me interested in a regular stair-climbing regime. Up, UP, UPPP!!

Thanks for reading and happy reading!!

Some words on love

Wud—like someone as a friend
Hawa—affection
Wajd—strong emotion
Shawq—longing
Gharam—infatuation
Futun—infatuation and fascination
Ghazal—flirting or wooing
Lawaa—suffering from love
Sabwa—sensual love or captivation
Hub—love (in general for family members, books, spouses)
Sababa—ardent love
Tatyum—obsession with loved one
Ghamart—overwhelmed with love
Ishq—passionate love
Wala’—deep love, when you miss your partner when you’re apart
Hiyam—the last level of love, when you’re never able to leave your lover

Arabic has a surprisingly large number of words for love.

Twenty Letters to a Friend

svetlana petersBy Svetlana Alliluyeva; @1967; Harper & Row Publishers; New York and Evanston

Svetlana Alliluyeva was the daughter of Joseph Stalin. In her memoir, Twenty Letters to a Friend, she struggles to come to grips with her childhood and in particular her relationship with her father, who he was a man, father, husband, and leader. According to Wikipedia, Svetlana caused an international stir when she defected from the Soviet Union in 1967. Interesting that this is the same date her memoir was published. Svetlana was born in 1926 and passed away in 2011. (Stalin died in 1953.) Wikipedia says as of 2010, she was living in Wisconsin.

This book came to me from my grandmother. She didn’t give it to me, but rather, I inherited it when she died. My grandmother was a member of the Book of the Month Club, and this was one of the books she received. My grandmother was very well read, but I don’t think she ever had the same kind of fascination with Russia that I developed.

As I read this book, I felt a wave of compassion for Svetlana. After all, it’s hard to top having Stalin for a father. For one, there is the mysterious death of Svetlana’s mother. Was it really a suicide? Did Beria do it? Could Stalin have? How culpable was Stalin in the terror? She seems to want to shift the blame, painting Stalin as a man whose passions could be manipulated, a man with tremendous paranoia that worsened over time. What is touching is that she loved him, and I suppose the monster that I have read about in my history classes must have loved her too.

There are a couple of things that could have improved her memoir. She didn’t say much about the Soviet gulags that her father worked so hard to populate. She also didn’t write much in scenes. Most of her letters were strictly telling, not much showing. The letters she wrote about her mother and her first husband were the most gripping, where I actually forgot I was reading and lost myself in her story.

Svetlana is extremely self-conscious throughout her memoir, always watching what she says, always crafting an impression. And this is certainly understandable given the very public nature of her life. Unfortunately, in this writing, she hasn’t unraveled her own denial, even though I have the feeling that she sincerely tried.

The Way It Is: New and Selected Poems

By William Stafford (1914–1993); Graywolf Press; @ 1998; 254 pages.

All the poets I know have said they like William Stafford. The book everyone knows is Writing the Australian Crawl. It’s the inspirational how-to book for poets and writers. Stafford is from the Midwest. He was a conscientious objector during World War II. He moved to the Northwest and taught and wrote and traveled. Some might say he was a workaholic, and certainly he was prolific, rising every morning around 4 a.m. to write. He wrote more than 50 books and more than 3,000 poems. He won the National Book Award for Traveling Through the Dark.

I like William Stafford too, but after a full book of poems, he remains an enigma. After I read Mary Oliver’s poems, I felt I knew Mary Oliver; the same was true for Billy Collins, Ted Kooser, and even Tomas Transtormer. But William Stafford, for me, is just out of reach. Maybe the complicated simplicity of Collins has me spoiled. All the same, when I read Stafford, I remember cicadas, open fields of diverse species (not monocultures), and why I once thought of Oregon as a magical paradise. I become wistful and want to hit the road.

Poems I especially liked included:

  • Easter Morning

    American poet William Stafford (1914-1993)

    American poet William Stafford (1914-1993) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

  • You and Art
  • One Evening
  • Afterwards
  • Sayings of the Blind
  • The Way It Is
  • Big Bang
  • Wovoka’s Witness (3)
  • Things in the Wild Need Salt
  • Accountability   !!!
  • At the Playground
  • The Little Girl by the Fence at School
  • At the Un-National Monument along the Canadian Border!
  • As Me
  • One Home
  • (Plain black hats rode the thoughts that made our code.)
  • Ceremony
  • Circle of Breath
  • At the Bomb Testing Site
  • Outside
  • In the Oregon Country
  • In Response to a Question
  • Lit Instructor
  • Glances
  • Some Shadows
  • Back Home
  • Fifteen
  • Recoil
  • The Animal That Drank Up Sound
  • Bess
  • Holcomb Kansas
  • A Sound from the Earth
  • Things That Happen
  • So Long
  • Freedom
  • The Coyote in the Zoo
  • Meditation
  • West of Here
  • Coyote
  • That Year
  • Dropout
  • Some Remarks When Richard Hugo Came
  • A Wind From a Wing
  • Old Prof
  • Poetry
  • Men
  • In the All Verbs Navaho World
  • Malheur before Dawn
  • Freedom of Expression
  • Is This Feeling About the West Real?
  • Through the Junipers
  • It Still Happens Now
  • Objector
  • How It Is
  • My Life
  • A Course in Creative Writing
  • Things I Learned Last Week
  • Incident
  • Our Kind
  • We Interrupt to Bring You
  • Pegleg Lookout
  • Burning a Book
  • Thinking About Being Called Simple by a Critic
  • Waiting in Line
  • An Oregon Message
  • Why I Am Happy
  • The Sparkle Depends on Flaws in the Diamond
  • How It Is with Family
  • Run Before Dawn
  • Remarks on My Character
  • How These Words Happened

Very Inspiring Blogger Award

very-inspirational-bloggerThank you to Khaula Naxir (My Invincible Spirit) and Kelli Beck (Wordsmithing Ain’t Easy) for nominating me for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award. It was very nice of you to think of me. One thing that I have already discovered about this award is that it is a great way to discover other interesting blogs. Thank you!

The Very Inspiring Blogger Award is awarded to a blogger who makes blogging fun and cheerful.

The Rules:

  • Display the award logo on your blog.
  • Announce your win with a post and link back to the person who nominated you.
  • State 7 interesting things about yourself.
  • Nominate 15 bloggers for this award and link to them.
  • Let them know you have nominated them.

My 15 Amazing Nominees (in no particular order and OMG, it was so hard to limit the list to 15!):

  1. Road Tripping Europe (http://cosytravels.wordpress.com/)
  2. Ink Paper Pen (http://inkpaperpen.wordpress.com/)
  3. Misbehaved Woman (http://misbehavedwoman.wordpress.com/)
  4. Silver Threads (http://silverseason.wordpress.com/)
  5. LatinOPen (http://latinopen.wordpress.com/)
  6. Human Writes (http://coyotero2112.wordpress.com/)
  7. Hovercraft Doggy (http://hovercraftdoggy.com/)
  8. Depression Time (http://depression-time.com/)
  9. Unbound Boxes Limping Gods (http://cherylmoore.wordpress.com/)
  10. Ratiocinativa (http://ratiocinativa.wordpress.com/)
  11. Grass, Roots & Grains (http://grassrootsandgrains.wordpress.com/)
  12. Wanton Ruminating (http://malvikajaswal.wordpress.com/)
  13. Jenny Jaybles (http://jennyjaybles.wordpress.com/)
  14. Food Flavor Fascination (http://foodflavorfascination.wordpress.com/)
  15. Traveling Cookie (http://travelingcookie.wordpress.com/)

7 Things About Me:

  1. I would like to take some serious time off and hike the Pacific Northwest Trail.
  2. I work as an editor/proofreader/writer.
  3. I would like to visit every continent before I die.
  4. I would like to get to know an elephant.
  5. I’m trying to learn Spanish and Russian.
  6. My great grandfather was a stowaway on a ship that sailed from Denmark to the U.S.
  7. I love the beach. Sometimes I think I want to live there.

Flying at Night: Poems 1965-1985

By Ted Kooser; @1980, 1985 University of Pittsburgh Press, 142 pages.

This is the one. This is my favorite book of poems by Ted Kooser. Ted has tremendous talent for evoking vivid scenes with simple, unassuming language. My favorite poems include:

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Selecting a Reader
Christmas Eve
Sitting All Evening Alone in the Kitchen
The Man with the Hearing Aid
How to Make Rubarb Wine
A Widow
So This Is Nebraska
After the Funeral
Shooting a Farmhouse
Late September
Looking for You, Barbara
Abandoned Farmhouse
A Goldfish Floats to the Top of His Life
They Had Torn Off My Face at the Office
Year’s End
Flying at Night
Just Now
A Birthday Card
A Room in the Past
Decoration Day
Laundry
At Nightfall
The Voyager II Satellite

In an Instant: A Family’s Journey of Love and Healing

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By Lee and Bob Woodruff

When ABC News journalist Bob Woodruff began the day of January 29, 2006, he had it all. Married with four children, he was healthy, handsome, and successful. At 44, Woodruff had been promoted to the position of co-anchor of ABC’s World News Tonight opposite Elizabeth Vargas. That day in January as Woodruff rode with his ABC new crew on an embed mission with Iraqi and coalition soldiers, he was doing what he loved to do, reporting the news from a foreign war-torn land. Everything was going well until Iraqi insurgents detonated a roadside bomb, throwing rocks and shrapnel into Woodruff’s head, neck, and back. Everything was fine until the moment that it wasn’t.

The dual memoir In an Instant, written by Lee and Bob Woodruff, began as Lee’s personal therapy. Lee and Bob tell the story of Bob’s traumatic brain injury and his uncertain path to recovery. Told from alternating points of view, In an Instant is set against the relationship backgrounds of marriage, career, family, and friends. It shows the place of hope, courage, devotion, and commitment amidst the anxiety of impending loss.

The story begins with Lee on vacation with her children at Disney World. Bob is in Iraq. As the events unfold, and interesting structure evolves. The story of Bob’s injury and the details of his recovery are juxtaposed against the story of Lee and Bob’s relationship, the first time they met, their courtship, and marriage. It traces Bob’s career as a foreign war correspondent up to the point where he succeeded Peter Jennings, becoming a co-anchor at World News Tonight. The technique of recounting their story from the alternating viewpoints of husband and wife, as well as from alternating periods in time, provides a contrast that lends depth and perspective to the memoir.

Lee’s honesty is commendable as she bravely paints a complex picture of married life and motherhood, both the good and the bad. She shows the difficulty of attending to all the pressing details and logistics that go hand and hand with caring for someone who is critically injured. She describes how she conquered her emotional state as she managed travel, child care, and medical decisions while assuming the responsibilities of guardian and caretaker for her injured husband.

Lee describes the fear and anguish that come from not knowing if or how her husband’s recovery would progress—if he would ever wake up, if he would speak, what he would look like, and if he would remember he loved her. Lee talks about the importance and difficulty of controlling what was said about Bob’s condition in the press and praises Bob’s colleagues for respecting the family’s privacy. She navigates her story through territory fraught with the potential for sentimentality, and only slips once when she veers off on a tangent describing the intense love she has for her sister, Nancy.

Elizabeth Vargas and Bob Woodruff, co-anchors ...

Elizabeth Vargas and Bob Woodruff, co-anchors of World News Tonight. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Bob provides fascinating insights into his career as a foreign war correspondent. He recounts how he first became interested in journalism while he was teaching law in Beijing during the events of Tiananmen Square. He explains his passion for journalism and what drew him to dangerous situations.

“Wars revealed so many horrible stories and injury and death. But in the midst of that landscape, there was always powerful evidence of hope. Among the violence were people who had learned something profound about life. Places of war allow you to witness extremes, the highs and lows of life, people starving and defeated, people victorious and surfeited.”

Ultimately, Bob’s assertion that his family always came first is hard to believe. While it seems apparent that Bob made a genuine effort to balance his love of journalism with his love for his family and felt torn and guilty many times, the sacrifices that were made seem to have rested heavily upon Lee. Having supported him while he climbed his career ladder, Lee took care of their home and their children, allowing Bob to pursue his life’s passion for journalism and travel the world.

At times the book strays dangerously close to the unflattering terrain of which spouse sacrificed the most, but the Woodruff’s story never deteriorates to that level. It does, however, leave the reader with lingering questions regarding the place of sacrifice in marriage. How do spouses balance the sacrifices they make for each other? When is a sacrifice commendable, and when is it simply loving too much?

In an Instant graphically and almost horrifically illustrates the kind of damage caused to the human body from an improvised explosive device (IED). The magnitude of Bob’s injuries is described, including the detailed description of his brain swelling outside his head. The Woodruffs are careful to remind their readers that these types of injuries are becoming typical for vast numbers of U.S. troops serving in Iraq. Pictures of Bob’s crushed skull bone and his head after the left side of his skull was removed are included. The Woodruffs spare no ink when they lavish praise on the Army medical doctors both in Iraq and in the United States who treated Bob.

In an Instant is a brave and timely book that examines not only the signature injury of the Iraq war, traumatic brain injury, but also fearlessly dissects a marriage, accepts its imperfections, and lays bare the sacrifices, bitterness, and love. It is unclear whether Bob Woodruff will reach a point in his recovery where he will be able to reclaim the pinnacle of his journalistic career. What is certain is that Bob’s life has provided him with a wealth of fascinating stories. The writing team of Lee and Bob Woodruff is undoubtedly well equipped to tell them.

The Trial

Franz Kafka

Franz Kafka (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

By Franz Kafka; @ 1925, 1998 by Schocken Books, Inc.; 266 pages.

After finishing The Trial, my first response was to go online for a professional analysis of what this novel was all about. Unsuccessful, I decided to see what I could come up with on my own. I knew when I began reading The Trial that it was unfinished, and normally that would put me off, but since it has been called one of the greatest novels of the 20th century, I was interested to read it anyway.

The story opens as Josef K., (or K.) the CFO of a bank, wakes up without the breakfast that his landlady normally gives him. He opens his door to find strangers waiting for him and is placed under arrest. Thus, his trial begins. From that point forward, he tries unsuccessfully to discover what charges have been brought against him and to defend himself against an impersonal, bureaucratic legal system.

Metaphor for Realization of One’s Own Mortality?

To me, the theme of “the trial” seemed to be a metaphor for life, especially man’s relationship with religion and his quest to enter Heaven. Many symbols supported this view for me. In the beginning, K. was not taking his trial seriously (just as children don’t take their lives seriously; their consciousness of life is a dreamworld of possibility). Later, as the book progresses, K. takes his trial (life) more and more seriously; this seems to escalate as everyone tells him his trial is going badly.

K. was arrested within the boundaries of his everyday life (just as one who has the realization of their own mortality would be arrested, unable to think of anything else for a while). K. isn’t detained in a prison, but instead is allowed to go on living just as he always had, only now with the shame (metaphor for knowledge of original sin) of being on trial (life). He had to report to hearings from time to time (metaphor for going to church on a regular basis), and was promised that no one would know about his trial (shame attributed to life through original sin), however, many found out about it.

He doesn’t know the higher judges, can’t find them, can’t communicate with them directly (God), and is never free again, as he was in his innocent childhood.

There were two ways to avoid conviction (death). One was the “extension option” (extending the trial indefinitely) and the other was “temporary acquittal,” which amounted to working really hard to get acquitted and then forgetting about the trial until the judges found your paperwork again and you were tried again. (This idea seemed to mirror the illnesses we get during life. We get sick and then get well again, until finally one day, we get sick and don’t recover.)

The way K.’s lawyer treated his other client, the merchant, as a dog, and that the man allowed him to do so, served to illuminate K.’s character. The merchant had chosen the “extension option” and in so doing had lost every ounce of self respect he ever had. He was turned into an obedient “dog,” always begging for approval (Kafka’s view of the obedient churchgoer?). The reader could see that this was not something K. was willing to do as his own trial (life) progressed, and K. fired the lawyer.

The options given K. for avoiding a verdict, that of extending the trial (by going to court (church) on a regular basis) or seeking a temporary acquittal (forgetting about the trial (nature of life) for a while), were ultimately rejected by K. The option of “temporary acquittal” seemed like it would buy K. some peace until the next time the court noticed his paperwork, which could be years, or minutes. However, the knowledge that the court would one day discover him and try him again, would keep K. from ever being free (like the looming knowledge of death. Eventually death will catch up with us all, so we are never really free.)

Some people take actions to avoid judgment or to postpone it. This progresses differently for everyone, depending on how predispositioned they are for obedience. This is illustrated by the merchant and how he acted as an obedient dog, giving up the rest of what shreds of freedom existed for him to serve his lawyer in an effort to postpone the inevitable, obediently reading texts he didn’t understand (metaphor for the scriptures/Bible?) in a dark room with very little light.

I found K.’s romantic relationships with women interesting. Other than his landlady, the women were all a little slutty, even the young girls who waited outside the painter’s apartment (women are the tempters of men). So, for a while, I thought K. might be on trial for his boorish treatment of women. All of the women except for Fraulein Brustner were already involved with other men (even the little girls could be said to have been involved with the artist). K. himself was involved with a woman that the novel didn’t say much about, and he cheated on her without thought or apology. He was told not to stop enlisting the help of women, but K. disagreed with this. He believed that women could help him (in the end, they didn’t.) This seemed like a loose end attributable to the novel being unfinished.

Oddities

For a high ranking officer at a bank, Josef K.’s living quarters seemed inconsistent with his status. He was a boarder in a house with a landlady. Wouldn’t a CFO have his own place? This was odd. The writing at the beginning of the novel was much more vivid and engaging than at the end. Of course, this wasn’t a finished novel, and Kafka had left instructions for it to be burned. To further the religious metaphors, K. was sentenced in the cathedral (perhaps symbolic of the courtroom of God), and his execution took place in a quarry.

Parable of the Law

In the parable of the law told to K. by the priest in the cathedral, I figured that the priest was represented by the gatekeeper of the law (priests can be thought of as gatekeepers to God), and K. was represented by the merchant who waited his whole life to enter the gate to the law (the everyman waiting outside the Pearly Gates of Heaven). The merchant (like K.) was afraid and was advised that he could not gain entrance to go through the gate to the law (Heaven) even though we later learn that this gate was made especially for him (Jesus died for our sins). I thought this might be the key to the entire novel. K. never figured out a way to get justice (to get to Heaven).

Free Will

Kafka’s references to freedom (free will) were interesting. How the gatekeeper’s post (the priest) restricted the merchant’s freedom, while the merchant, in fact, restricted his own freedom by seeking what he couldn’t have, or could he have it? (entry into the law (into Heaven)). Inside or outside the law, the man still had a choice to pursue his desires (free will). He could have chosen not to seek (Is Kafka saying that the only free men are those who are not religious? Those who seek nothing?) Yet, I don’t think the merchant was free, since he was enslaved his whole life by his desire to enter the law (Maybe this is Kafka’s point—seeking God one’s whole life is a form of slavery). Or, is it that believing what others tell you can prevent you from having what is easily attainable? Or, is it that the desire itself is enslaving. Or, is it that forgetfulness is good?

This book was much more fun to analyze than it was to read. :)

Beloved

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English: Toni Morrison, Miami Book Fair International, 1986 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

By Toni Morrison; Signet, Penguin Books USA @1987; 338 pages.

I had heard of Toni Morrison, but had never read her books. I won’t rehash the story here because I don’t want to spoil it for you, not even the first chapter.

Beloved won the Pulitzer Prize for Fiction. Briefly, the story is about Sethe, a woman who escaped from slavery and who continues to be haunted by her past.

Toni Morrison is amazing. She is the most skilled writer I have read in a very long time. I am in awe. The story she tells, the details, her execution, her command of language, suspense, knowledge and understanding of human nature, scene, dialogue, imagination! And while I’m not drawn to sad stories, this one is a must read. This one, that I’m reading so soon after having read Doris Lessing’s Prisons That We Choose to Live Inside, strikes me as another example of the horrific behavior of our species.

Slavery is a topic so painful that we still can’t talk about it. There is so much I didn’t know. So much I need to find out. How terribly awful our past is. But Morrison has created art here. She has brought beauty, humanity, and strength to a situation so horrible, so shameful, so intense that it is just unimaginable to me that it really happened. Of course, this story is fiction, but the details here revive the real-life actions of the past. We know that people, other than the characters of this story, real people, lived through a lot more. Morrison tells a story that must be told, must be read, and must be acknowledged.

Here is an example of Toni Morrison’s writing:

Anybody Baby Suggs knew, let along loved, who hadn’t run off or been hanged, got rented out, loaned out, bought up, brought back, stored up, mortgaged, won, stolen or seized. So Baby’s eight children had six fathers. What she called the nastiness of life was the shock she received upon learning that nobody stopped playing checkers just because the pieces included her children. Halle she was able to keep the longest. Twenty years. A lifetime. Given to her, no doubt, to make up for hearing that her two girls, neither of whom had their adult teeth, were sold and gone and she had not been able to wave goodbye. To make up for coupling with a straw boss for four months in exchange for keeping her third child, a boy, with her—only to have him traded for lumber in the spring of the next year and to find herself pregnant by the man who promised not to and did. That child she could not love and the rest she would not.

I find Baby Suggs’ strategy for getting though the final chapter of her life compelling. She decided that she wanted to think about something that didn’t have any pain involved, no hurt, no evil. She went to bed and contemplated color. She started with blue, then went on to yellow and then pink.

Was Morrison meaning to be ironic? Because it seems that color does have a lot of pain associated with it.

On the front of my copy, there is a quote from Newsweek:

“A masterpiece … magnificent … astounding … overpowering!”

Yes—All of the above.

——–The BBC World Book Club interviewed Toni Morrison. You can listen to that interview here: http://downloads.bbc.co.uk/podcasts/worldservice/wbc/wbc_20120407-2006a.mp3

Prisons We Choose to Live Inside

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English: Doris Lessing, British writer, at lit.cologne, Cologne literature festival 2006, Germany (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

By Doris Lessing; Perennial, An Imprint of HarperCollinsPublishers; @1987; 78 pages.

This book addresses one of my primary questions about human history and human behavior. How is our species capable of doing the horrible things that it has—and is? Why do we do it? Can we stop?

A few months ago I watched somewhat recently discovered film footage (A Film Unfinished) which documented the living conditions of the Jews in the Warsaw slums during World War II.

Horrified does not begin to approach my reaction. I have seen photos before, but the film footage and the fact that it was filmed, and staged, and shot over and over, was so callously heartless, I guess, I had not conceived of this possibility before.

What horrible evil. How could anyone participate in such a thing?

We know that this kind of behavior is not limited to World War II or to the Germans.  It can be found in many societies and at many times in human history, and undoubtedly some iteration of it is happening right now.

Lessing, thankfully, does not go into graphic detail, but does give us anecdotes and references some psychological experiments, including the famous Milgram experiment, in which it takes shockingly little to convince people to torture others and excuse themselves by saying they were just following orders.

Lessing maintains that humans (any of us), because of our psychology, are highly susceptible to acting in horrible ways in certain situations and can be influenced easily in groups. It is very rare for any of us to go against (disagree with, challenge) our groups.

She asks how is it that we have this information about ourselves but have not yet incorporated it into our institutions of government so that we don’t repeat these kinds of horrible actions? If we can just admit that we are wired in certain ways, we can put safety measures in place to stop ourselves.

This is a great book and an easy short read. I highly recommend it.

Doris Lessing is a prolific author and is most famous for her novel The Golden Notebook. She won the Nobel Prize in Literature in 2007.

The First 50 Pages: Engage Agents, Editors, and Readers and Set Up Your Novel For Success

019By Jeff Gerke; Writers Digest Books; @2011; 226 pages.

I’ve got a few how-to books for writing novels, but this one is the best one I’ve read in quite some time. The author, Jeff Gerke, has worked as an acquisitions editor and offers his insights for what needs to be done in the first 50 pages of your novel.

I was so inspired by this book that I started making notes for my own novel while reading it.

For the longest time, I’ve felt constrained about how to begin a novel. Should I just free write and see what happens, or should I outline the thing to death and start writing from my outline?

Thus far, I’ve done nothing.

Jeff Gerke gives me a third option. Think about a structure and the key things you need to accomplish (he tells you what they are), and then write to satisfy that structure. It’s sort of like playing the blues. You learn the blues scale and then improvise. That, I can do.

This isn’t to say that I’m not still feeling a lot of angst about my novel. I am. But I’ve got a lot of notes going now and a feeling about how to proceed.

As you might expect, Gerke harps on about showing and not telling, but he does a whole lot more.

He says the point of writing a novel is to show us a character’s transformation. He says that the hero has to have a “moment of truth.” He (she) has to acknowledge that he hasn’t been true to himself and that something has to change.

Fiction is about someone who wants something—and the thing that would keep them from getting it.

I like Gerke’s analogy of a character sitting on a fence (makes me think of the Flowers album by the Rolling Stones). The character has been sitting on a fence. As storytellers, we have to set fire to that fence, and our character has to jump off. The only question is: will he chose the path to his destruction (his status quo up to this point) or will he be true to his nearly forgotten core self?

Gerke reminds us to establish a normal before we violate normal. Begin with action, but not the main action.

He talks about the “hero’s knot.” What’s our hero’s deal? What’s his issue?

The more you, as the author, push him to unravel his knot, the more he resists.

Then Gerke talks about four ways (devices you can use) to begin your novel.

He also gives guidance for what the villain is supposed to do. He says that although some novels don’t have villains, in the publishing world, it’s better to have a villain than not to have a villain.

He talks a bit about the three-act structure, and explains how this works in a fresh and understandable way. Since Act 1 takes place in the first 50 pages, he gives you everything you ought to have in Act 1.

I was really inspired after reading this book. I now have quite a few notes on my first 50 pages. And, I’ll probably refer back to the book as a whole once I’ve written my first draft.

The Weather Makers: How Man Is Changing the Climate and What It Means for Life on Earth

By Tim Flannery; Grove Press, New York; @ 2005; 360 pages.

Tim Flannery

Tim Flannery (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

From the back page of this book: “Tim Flannery is an internationally acclaimed scientist, explorer, and conservationist.” He is a professor at Macquarie University in Australia. He has made numerous appearances on various news outlets. And he just might be my new hero. Well done Flannery. Well done.

I bought Flannery’s book back in 2007. It’s got a pretty cool cover photo, and the subject matter interests me. For some reason, I felt intimidated by this book when I first tried to read it in 2007.

This book re-emerged after Super Storm Sandy crashed into the East Coast.

I flipped to a section that interested me: Time’s Gateways. Finding it incredibly engaging and easy to read, I read another section. Then I flipped to the beginning and dug in.

Flannery fills this book with detail after interesting detail—adult humans require 30 lbs of air every day of their lives; elephants colonized every continent on earth except for Australia; our time address today is Cainozoic Era, Quaternary Period, Holocene Epoch.

I feel like I should read it again and again. But probably I will read it only once.

You can pretty well guess which side of the issue Flannery is on just by reading the title of his book. While he confirms that “skepticism is the lifeblood of science,” he follows that idea a few pages later with: “If, for example, we wait to see if an ailment is indeed fatal, we will do nothing until we are dead.”

Many if not most of the people I associate with these days, do not accept the possibility of a human-induced climate change. The earth is simply too big, and humans are simply too small.

Unlike my acquaintances, I am swayed by the massive amount of evidence: disappearing glaciers, melting polar ice caps, destroyed coral reefs, massive extinctions, stronger weather events, rising ocean temperatures, acidifying oceans, the Keeling curve. I also recognize that over the last 40 years, science has made enormous strides in its ability to analyze the world (computers). I don’t think scientists are always right or that they know everything, but Flannery makes some interesting points.

The author’s core message is that we currently have the knowledge and the tools to act wisely. Climate change is occurring rapidly and will soon become not just a big issue, but the only issue.

Scary words. Sensational language. This is usually the time I put the book down to see what’s in the fridge.

But I try to be better than that and read on to learn that some power plants burn through 550 tons of coal per hour. Wow. I mean…Wow. Really, that’s quite a lot. Did you catch that? Not per day. Per hour.

Other interesting tidbits. The Great Smog of 1952 in London killed 12,000 people.

Time’s gateways are occasions when one age, and often one climate gives way to the next. They are marked by faunal turnover; species suddenly appear or disappear.

I learned that the Earth formed 4,500 million years ago during the Hadean era. (That’s quite a long time ago.)

Around 100,000 years ago, humans were as rare as gorillas are today, at about 2,000 fertile adults.

For 90,000 years we were nothing but hunter gatherers. It hasn’t been until the most recent 10,000 years when the Earth’s climate has stabilized that we began to farm and build civilizations.

Our planet has experienced massive extinctions on five occasions.

The current climate change may bring an end to our current era, the Cainozoic. (Climate change can happen really fast; like in a hundred years; really really fast.)

I learned that the English used to think coal was a living organism that would grow if covered with manure.

Also, in 1986 “humans reached Earth’s carrying capacity, and ever since we have been running the environmental equivalent of a deficit budget, which is sustained by plundering our capital base.”

Beyond the failure of the Gulf Stream, now I can be afraid of the warming of the oceans and the sudden release of clathrates. Although, this should not happen for another hundred years.

Flannery puts it all together more logically than I have, but you get the picture. This guy has done a lot of research and is quite smart.

And, we’re all doomed.

I mean really; let’s face it.

But, it’s a great story.

The Stranger

Albert Camus

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By Albert Camus; Vintage International; @ 1942; 123 pages.

This book won the Nobel Prize in Literature. My edition was translated by Matthew Ward. There was a lot of build up about how great this translation is and how it was specifically directed at the American audience. I noticed a couple of grammatical errors and wondered if those were in difference to us Americans.

I couldn’t sympathize with Meursault, the protagonist. I didn’t understand why he did what he did during Part One. That he did not cry at his mother’s funeral didn’t bother me (I cried beforehand), but that he supported his acquaintance in beating up a woman who he didn’t even know—well, that lost my sympathy.

I know. I know. I should think about the time in which it was written. Blah, blah, blah. I don’t care. I am tired of crimes against women. And there was no way I was going to see it as justifiable.

Meursault couldn’t say that he cared about anything. His girlfriend would ask him if he loved her, and he would say: well, I don’t think it matters, but no, I don’t think so. I kept getting stuck on “it doesn’t matter.” To whom? To Meursault? To the girl? To life in general?

The narrator did seem very genuine in Part Two, and I was thankful for the honesty of Camus here, especially the part where Meursault is thinking about escape. That rang true for his character. But the whole story felt like a vehicle to raise a discussion of the existence of God or the afterlife or lack thereof at the end.

To put it mildly, I felt short-changed. Maybe if I had read it in French I would have formed a different opinion. Or maybe it would have seemed like a breath of fresh air if I had read it in the 1940s or 50s. Who knows.

I enjoyed the descriptions of the beach and the heat. The murder irritated me, because I wasn’t buying the motivation for it.

The cover art was cool… Probably I’m missing something important.

A friend of mine said she LOVED this book, but sadly it was lost on me.

Heart of Darkness

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By Joseph Conrad; Wordsworth; Editions Limited; @1995; first published before television in 1899; 74 pages.

At 74 pages, this may be the longest book I’ve ever read in my life. Whereas the story of the Heart of Darkness has some interest in it, the telling is excruciating. I’ve heard about this story for as long as I can remember, so I was convinced there must be something to it.

You would think it would be interesting what with the setting in the Congo and the ivory, the mysterious Kurtz, and cannibals on-board a tin can of a boat going down a river. And the fog. I love fog!

But the terrors do not come in the suspense of the story, but in the awful drudgery of wading through it, rather like wading through a muddy river bottom after a soaking rain and having to struggle for each step forward until the muddy bog finally releases your rubber boots with an awful sucking noise—thwup!

Save yourself; find the movie and watch it.

Authors on Film: Vladimir Nabokov discusses Lolita(with Lionel Trilling)

Reblogged from eReading just got social:

So a few thoughts on this. First of all, I love seeing Nabokov on film. I was rather disappointed that he seems to have lost his Russian accent altogether. There is something that doesn't seem right about losing one's native accent completely—like loosing one's identity. The other thing I found interesting was that Nabokov is an expert in butterflies. I also thought it was interesting how he tries to distance himself from Humbert Humbert.

The Sea, The Sea

By Iris Murdoch; @ 1978; Penguin Books; 502 pages.

The Sea, The Sea

This is fast becoming monsters week (literary, that is). I think Charles Arrowby has got to be considered a monster, both to himself and to the ones he “loves.”

I picked this one up a few times—and put it down.

They say the best way to establish rapport with your reader is to write in the first person. So, Charles Arrowby, famous playwright and director (and our protagonist) is writing his diary/memoirs (in the first person, of course). He has just ended a brilliant career in the theatre. He is in his sixties and has retired to an isolated area by the sea somewhere in Great Britain where he has purchased a weird little house from a Mrs. Chorney. Charles bores us with his very particular ideas about food while risking his life and hypothermia by swimming in the sea, often having trouble climbing back out—naked, of course.

It occurred to me while reading this that when writing in the first person, if you are too convincingly smug or if your character is too self-deluded, you risk alienating your reader. Charles isn’t someone I want to hang out with for 500 pages, so around page 20, I started asking myself if I should go ahead and purchase War and Peace.

But this book is supposed to be “compelling, very funny” so I read on.

By page 50, I’m singing a different tune. Iris Murdoch has hooked me. Once Charles starts talking about the theatre, his passion takes over the page. I am amazed at how well Iris is able to write in the persona of a man. I am thoroughly convinced.

I feel sorry for her too, because she must have known someone like Charles to be able to write his character so well. Past 60 and he is still playing these games with women. How horrid! But as a character in a novel, Charles, at a safe distance (after all, he is fiction), is intriguing.

It’s interesting, too, how Iris gains our interest in Charles. By showing us Lizzie, a woman who is desperately in love with him but for whom he is luke warm, we see someone desires him; therefore, he must be desirable. He must also have options since he can cast her aside so easily.

I had just about written Charles off for being an incredibly self-centered bore. But I feel for Lizzie. She doesn’t want to be manipulated, and yet she can’t help but respond to Charles.

Charles did love someone once: Hartley.

The rest of the book is like watching a train wreck. Turns out that Hartley (now called Mary by everyone since Hartley is her middle name) lives with her husband in the same village where Charles has moved, by the sea.

Charles, so enthusiastic over meeting Hartley again, does not take it slow. He is determined to have Hartley in his life again and insists that she and her husband come to his house for drinks.

As Hartley hides in their little bungalow (they are not as affluent as Charles), her husband lets Charles know what’s what:

‘Listen, it’s not on, sorry, we don’t want to know you. Sorry to put it like that but you won’t seem to take a hint. I mean, there’s no point, is there. All right, you knew Mary a long time ago, but a long time ago is a long time ago. She doesn’t want to know you now, and I don’t want to start, see….

Ghastly.

Charles Arrowby is a wonderful example of an unreliable narrator. I feel sorry for him. He’s so caught up in his emotions and so very horribly deluded. He’s also callously insensitive to people who say they love him. Terribly wounded, he goes his whole life without being able to have an honest relationship with a woman.

The rest of the story becomes laughable. What choice does Iris have?

Charles can either wake up to how abysmal he is being or embrace it. One choice ends the story as a tragedy. The other keeps it going as a farce. As it is, Charles becomes creepier and creepier.

After scheming and manipulating Hartley to stay the night as his house by the sea, Hartley wakes up and says she needs to go home. She hasn’t brought anything with her, not a bag or her makeup:

I could see that for her, it might matter however. In the bleak drained light which filtered in from the window which gave onto the drawing room, she looked terrible. Her face was puffy and greasy, her brow corrugated, lines of haggardness outlined her mouth. Her tangled hair, dry and frizzy, looked like an old wig….And as I thought to show her how little I minded her shabby helplessness, my titanic love could even have wished for greater odds.”

The tension in the story comes from watching Charles obsessively pursue something we know he doesn’t want.

My favorite quote from the book isn’t that hard to translate. It is “Sic biscuitus disintegrat.” (That’s how the cookie crumbles.)

Overall, this is a good book to read for prolonged, extensive inner dialog. While Iris Murdoch describes her characters thoughts and motives very thoroughly, by the end of this book, I wanted to throw the lot of them into the sea.

Iris Murdoch attended Oxford and Cambridge. She studied classics and philosophy. Her other works include Bruno’s Dream, A Fairly Honourable Defeat, Henry and Cato, The Italian Girl, The Nice and the Good, The Sandcastle, A Severed Head, Under the Net, and A Word Child.

Frankenstein; Or, the Modern Prometheus

English: Cropped portrait of Mary Shelley

English: Cropped portrait of Mary Shelley (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

By Mary Shelley; Pocket Books, a division of Simon & Schuster, Inc.; @ 1818; my edition is 2004; 284 pages.

Believe it or not, Frankenstein shows up on many of the “to read” book lists.

I picked up Frankenstein because I’m tired of love stories. The story begins in Russia as our first narrator tells of his ambition to explore the North Pole. While in Archangel, he has a bit of boat and ice trouble and runs into Victor Frankenstein, a man who has a tragic story to tell. The rest of the story takes place in Switzerland.

Mary Shelley wrote Frankenstein when she was only 21.

And it appears she was quite scandalous for her time. She and Percy Shelley had an affair while he was still married. His wife, Harriet, not too long afterwards, committed suicide by drowning herself in a lake. Mary and Percy Shelley married soon thereafter. A few years later Percy Shelley also drowned in a boating accident. Quite a lot going on for a young female author of the early 1800s.

Mary Shelley wrote Frankenstein as the result of a bet to see who out of Lord Byron, Percy Shelley, and she could write the scariest story. Byron and Shelley never finished a book-length story, and Percy urged Mary to complete what she had started.

At its core, Frankenstein is a story about unchecked ambition and the consequences of disturbing the order of nature. In explanation of the subtitle, in Greek mythology, Prometheus stole fire from the gods to enable human progress and civilization. He is credited with the creation of man from clay. He was punished for his theft by Zeus, who sentenced Prometheus to eternal torment. Prometheus was bound to a rock, where every day an eagle was sent to feed on his liver. His liver would grow back every day, and every day the ordeal would be repeated. Nice, eh?

And while I didn’t want to think about love, the story shows the consequences of the deprivation of love. The monster turns evil because there is no one on Earth who can love his hideous form, not even his creator.

I found the structure of the story interesting. We have the first narrator, who has his goal of visiting the North Pole. He meets Victor Frankenstein, who then begins telling his tale in the first person. Then the monster Frankenstein’s story is told through Victor and also is portrayed in the first person. Then we come back out as Victor begins speaking again, and finally the first narrator takes over. The monster Frankenstein was very well spoken. That didn’t seem to ring true to me, even though it is explained in the story.

I have not seen the Frankenstein movies, so I have nothing to compare this to other than Young Frankenstein with Gene Wilder. So this book is nothing like that. It’s a pretty good read. I wasn’t scared, but I was intrigued.

The Flower in the Skull

Sonora Desert, Mexico

Sonora Desert, Mexico (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

By Kathleen Alcalá; Harcourt Brace & Company; @ 1998; 180 pages.

This novel was a nice diversion. And what a tear jerker! Oh my goodness. I was so sad to see our main character, Concha, leave the Sonoran desert. Here’s a nice description of her homeland as told by the last female narrator in the book:

I realized that I missed the intense light of the Sonoran Desert—light unaccompanied by a proximity to water. The light in Sonora reduced every item on which it fell to its elemental self—light and dark, substance and shadow, reflection and absorption.”

Concha, a young girl from the now extinct Opata tribe, is forced to flee with her family from their tribal lands in the Sonoran desert of Mexico. She left everything behind, even her real name. The story follows her journey to Tucson, Arizona, and the course of her life and also the first part of her daughter Rosa’s young adult life. This is the story of their “legacy of dislocation.”

I loved this book until the last section, which brought the reader into the present. I was so involved with the characters in the first and middle sections that I had really high hopes for the ending. There were elements of magical realism sprinkled around in various places that I just love anyway, but to me, the ending missed its mark. The imagery of the sea could have been brought in and tied to the beginning, and I really wanted a stronger idea of how the last character related to the first two.

I couldn’t understand the final female protagonist. She seemed weak. She did things that I didn’t want her to do and that I didn’t understand. I get where she was coming from (trying not to be a spoiler here), but I guess I needed to understand more about her before I could accept her weakness, her perceived lack of options, and at least one instance of really poor judgement.

The last line threw me too. I didn’t understand it. I think I missed a huge point. As I turn it over in my mind, I still don’t know for sure.

Kathleen Alcalá creates a interesting structure for this novel. The point of view changes several times and for several reasons throughout the book. I found it interesting and risky, but it works.

Alcalá uses Spanish to make many of her main points. If you don’t speak Spanish, get out your dictionary or you’ll miss some things. There were only a few words I didn’t know, so I got a kick out of it. But for non-Spanish-speaking readers, I’m not sure the context is enough to give the meaning of the Spanish words.

And maybe that’s the point, but it’s a risk to leave your reader in the dark.

I definitely want to read more from this author. She also wrote Spirits of the Ordinary.

Here is a quote from the beginning of the book that I found interesting, and it seems to directly relate to the relationship between Concha and Rosa:

Amid those internal changes
Your skull fills with a new life,
and instead of thoughts, has flowers.”

Manual Acuña, from “Before a Corpse”

*****

Y en medio de esos cambios interiores
tu cráneo lleno de una nueva vida,
en vez de pensamientos dará flores.”

Manual Acuña, de “Ante un cadaver”

I think it’s prettier in Spanish.

A Foreign Woman

English: Looking south from Top of the Rock, N...

English: Looking south from Top of the Rock, New York City | (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

By Sergei Dovlatov; Grove Weidenfeld, New York; @ 1986; 113 pages.

There is something about Sergei Dovlatov that fascinates me. His writing is so compelling, so honest, so informative.

He is a personality that I wish I knew, that is sorely lacking from my life. And, of course, I never will know him, since he passed away in 1990. But how is he able to speak to me directly? How can he reach me? He is Russian. I am not. He is Jewish. I am not. His American identity rests in New York. Mine in Texas. Or, possibly in Oregon.

Most probably, it is because Dovlatov is so honestly human. He is able to tap into what unites us. He recognizes his flaws (our flaws) and doesn’t shy away from them, but manages to bring them to our attention and make us laugh. Here is an excerpt from the first pages of the book:

For us the native residents are like foreigners. If we hear English spoken, we grow wary. Sometimes we insist, “Speak Russian!” As a result, certain local individuals have started speaking our language. The Chinese counterman at the coffee shop greets me, “Good morning, Solzhenitsyn!” (It comes out “Solozenisa.”)

We are ambivalent about Americans. I don’t even know what we feel most—condescension or idolatry. We pity them for being irrational, feckless children. Yet our constant refrain is, “An American told me…” We use that phrase as the decisive, killer argument—as in, “An American told me that nicotine is harmful to your health.”

Dovlatov drops opinions that I instantly relate to. He says that some people are born to be rich or poor—no matter what the circumstances—it just comes to them naturally.

Or, people who have had a happy childhood should think often of retribution. How will they have to pay for it? Peace of mind? Health? Looks?

Or—“Dima was a good man. His vices were the absence of defects.”

Or—“Of course, there are not many people who realize that it is a disaster when things start well. That means they can only end in misery.”

And from one of his characters—“Getting drunk is voluntary madness.”

Or, on the maddening male/female relationship:

Marusya: You used to love me as a woman before.

Tsekhnovitsev:  Now I respect you as a person.

This guy Dovlatov. Man, he was paying attention.

Russians are always suffering and complaining, but Americans are different. Most of them are optimists by nature.

I’m starting to question my identity.

This is an interesting book. Just what was going on here? How much was fiction? How much was memoir? It’s always an interesting question. Not always so easy to answer.

I find myself inexplicably jealous when Dovlatov describes himself to Marusya as a stray dog. I’ve heard that it’s an essential trait of art to elicit emotion. It doesn’t matter what kind. So here I am angry at a dead man. I’ve obviously been reading too much.

Marusya is our protagonist in this book. She is “the foreign woman,” a Russian who has immigrated to America. She isn’t Jewish but she has married a Jewish man so she could leave Russia. He went to Israel, and she went to her cousins in New York.

New York was an event for Marusya, a concert, a spectacle. It became a city only after a month or two. Gradually the chaos revealed figures, colors, sounds. The noisy marketing intersection suddenly fell apart into its constituent units: a grocery store, a cafeteria, an insurance agency, and a delicatessen. The line of cars on the boulevard turned into a taxi stand. The smell of hot bread was inseparable from the colorful “Bakery” sign. A connection was established between a crowd of kids and the two-story brick schoolhouse.

Why did she leave Russia? I’m not sure. She’s not sure. She came from privilege, but life wasn’t working out. After two failed marriages and with a third arranged for convenience, Marusya wanted to try something new. When asked, she said she was in a bad mood. She felt that everything had already happened. In a way, Marusya reminds me of my mother, but my mother never left (Texas, that is). Maybe she should have.

Of course, leaving has its cost. There is that adjustment period in the new place. The time it takes to transition from tourist to resident.

Dovlatov liked Marusya for her striking combination of uncertainty and aplomb.

I like people like that—doomed, dying, helpless, and brazen. I always say, if you’re in trouble, you’re not sinning.

Huh?

I have to admit that I wasn’t as taken with Marusya as Dovlatov seemed to be. I have met women like Marusya, and they irritate me. I actually don’t like the combination of uncertainty and aplomb. I prefer the combination of certainty and substance. But hey, I didn’t see her. I also didn’t get the impression that people were all that rude in Moscow. Maybe that’s the beauty of travel. A lot of that stuff gets lost in translation. Thankfully.

Anyway.

I like Dovlatov because he expressed the view that there are things more important than justice.

What specifically?

Mercy.

It would be tough to have him as a husband.

Mercy.

God Bless You, Mr. Rosewater or Pearls Before Swine

God Bless You, Mr. Rosewater

God Bless You, Mr. Rosewater (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

By Kurt Vonnegut, Jr. Delacorte Press @ 1965; 217 pages.

God Bless You, Mr. Rosewater promises to be a satirical science fiction story about money. It’s ok; I wouldn’t race out to buy it or read it. Eliot Rosewater (our protagonist), heir to the vast Rosewater fortune, a man with total love for humanity and thus teetering on the verge of raving lunacy, has destroyed the word “love.”

One of the characters complains: “Eliot did to the word love what the Russians did to the word democracy. If Eliot is going to love everybody, no matter what they do, then those of us who love particular people for particular reasons had better find ourselves a new word.”

Kurt Vonnegut is very odd. Of course I knew this. I have read several of his books. Here is an excerpt I found interesting. Apparently, when people want to do something nice for Eliot Rosewater, they come by his office to help him get rid of flies. Vonnegut describes two methods for doing this. Here is the second:

The tumbler-and-soapsuds technique worked like this: A woman would look for a fly hanging upside down. She would then bring her tumbler of suds directly under the fly very slowly, taking advantage of the fact that an upside-down-fly, when approached by danger, will drop straight down two inches or more, in a free fall, before using his wings. Ideally, the fly would not sense danger until it [the tumbler] was directly below him, and he would obligingly drop into the suds to be caught, to work his way down through the bubbles, to drown.

Of this technique Eliot often said: ‘Nobody believes it until she tries it. Once she finds out it works, she never wants to quit.’”

But about money:

It’s still possible for an American to make a fortune on his own.

Sure—provided somebody tells him when he’s young enough that there is a Money River, that there’s nothing fair about it, that he had damn well better forget about hard work and the merit system and honesty and all that crap, and get to where the river is.

[Of course, this is not my view. I am merely relating the bitterness of Vonnegut, who himself worked hard and did pretty darn well.]

For me the story finally picks up with the tale of Fred Rosewater, the long lost relative of the Rosewater clan, who lives in poverty, not knowing that he is the heir to millions—the American dream.

He learns of this, just as he is about to be caught in the embarrassing act of killing himself.

I wasn’t sure what Pearls Before Swine meant, but after researching the phrase, it seems to have particular significance. Food for thought anyway.

Matthew 7:6 “Do not give what is holy to the dogs; nor cast your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you in pieces.”

The Compromise

Cover of "The Compromise"

Cover of The Compromise

By Sergei Dovlatov; Academy Chicago Publishers; @1990, first copyright Alfred A Knopf, Inc @1981; 148 pages.

While reading about Kurt Vonnegut, I noticed this guy, Sergei Dovlatov. Apparently, Vonnegut said some nice things about Dovlatov, so that peaked my interest.

The story unfolds as Dovlatov, a Russian living in Estonia, takes a job writing satire for the newspaper, On Watch for the Motherland. Turns out he isn’t a party member—which I found odd; I thought you would have to be a party member to write for a Soviet newspaper and that basically everyone was a party member anyway, but apparently not. Also, his articles weren’t satirical. Hmm, or were they?

Each chapter opens with a short newspaper article that Sergei has written—and that must be written in a certain way or changed to satisfy his bosses—a compromise. Basically, the typical writer’s life. But in this case, it is a writer’s life under Soviet rule. And it seems, every aspect of Dovlatov’s life.

One amusing anecdote is about an article that is needed for Tallinn‘s liberation anniversary. Dovlatov is given the assignment to tell the story of the 400 thousandth inhabitant born to the city. This number isn’t accurate, or even close, but no matter; it makes for a good story. Dovlatov goes to the maternity ward of the hospital in Tallinn and waits for a male child to be born. The 400 thousandth child needs to be a boy because a boy is more symbolic for the occasion.

Dovlatov waits. The first child born that day is a boy, but he doesn’t meet all of the publicizable requirements; he is half Ethiopian. Then another boy is born—also unacceptable; he is Jewish. Dovlatov has to explain to the father that the paper is looking for a boy from a “worker-peasant family.” No intellectuals. Too bad, because the father has already written a poem for the occasion.

“This means that anti-Semitism really does exist, doesn’t it?”

“Looks like it.”

“How could it appear in our country? Here, in a country where it seems—”

I interrupted him. “In a country where the ‘founding corpse’ has still not been buried…”

(I can see why Vonnegut liked Dovlatov.)

A suitable boy is finally born, but now the newspaper, still seeking to tell a good story, wants Dovlatov to convince the father to name the child Lembit, a name out of Estonian folklore. They are willing to pay him. So for 25 rubles, a would-be Volodya becomes a Lembit.

Sergei Dovlatov is immediately engaging. He captures my attention by talking directly to me; I find out who he is as he’s telling the story and I feel sympathetic to him (I have to think more about why). I like his tongue-in-cheek style. He’s absurd, honest, and subtlely humorous.

I liked several of his lines, but especially this one: “Lying without hope of gain is not lying, it’s poetry.” Seems right, considering how much poetry pays.

So probably, there are some things I missed, references, etc. that I didn’t understand because I haven’t ever lived in the Soviet Union. But, overall, The Compromise, was a good read and makes the interesting distinction between the facts and the truth.

I found myself giggling through the last two compromises, high praise indeed.

Crime and Punishment

Dostoevsky in 1863.

Dostoevsky in 1863. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

By Fyodor Dostoevsky; Bantam Classic; First published in 1866; this edition published in 1981; 472 pages.

At the risk of sounding like Alistair Cooke, it seems this is the best way to start my entry:

The stakes are high for Dostoevsky as he contemplates writing this novel. It’s been five years since his return from exile in Siberia (1850–1860). He had been sent there as punishment for alleged subversion against Tsar Nicholas I. He spent four of these years doing hard labor. At one point, he was even led before a firing squad, but was pardoned at the last second. After his return from Siberia, Dostoevsky worked with his brother to produce two literary-political journals (you’d think he wouldn’t have wanted to touch politics after his stint in Siberia). In April 1864, his wife died of tuberculosis. His brother died a few months later. The journals failed, and Dostoevsky’s debts increased by the day.

Hounded by creditors, in 1865 he wanted to leave Russia to find some peace in Europe where his ex-mistress, Apollinaria Suslova, was currently living and whom he wanted to see very badly. To raise the money, he obtained a loan from the Literary Fund. He also approached several periodicals with an idea for a new novel.

He was rejected. Finally, he made a deal with a publisher named F.T. Stellovsky. Dostoevsky promised to give Stellovsky a novella-sized work by November 1866. (Looks like he made his deadline?) If he failed, he would have to give Stellovsky the right to publish all of his future work without compensation for the next nine years! (I have the feeling that Dostoevsky really wanted to go to Europe.)

So Dostoevsky took an advance from Stellovsky, paid his debts, and traveled to Wiesbaden, Germany. His plan was to replenish his funds by gambling what he had left. He lost everything. He could not even afford to eat.

During this time as tension and desperation continued to build, Dostoevsky developed the idea for Crime and Punishment. He swallowed his pride and wrote to an old enemy, Mikhail Katkov, a powerful editor. He pitched the story, and Katkov liked it.

Now Dostoevsky was indebted to two publishers. The introduction to my edition tells me all this and the whole plot of the novel (which I turned a blind eye to because I would rather experience it myself), but did not explain how Dostoevsky resolved these two debts. Leave it to me to fixate on something no one else finds interesting. And what happened with Apollinaria?

Only three years before his imprisonment in Siberia, Doestoevsky published his first novel, Poor Folk. (Dostoevsky was born in Moscow in 1821.) His prison memoir is Notes From the House of the Dead.

Crime and Punishment begins with a scene of a hot July evening in St Petersburg. Our protagonist, Rodion Romanovich Raskolnikov (Родиóн Ромáнович Раскóльников), is leaving his tiny apartment and trying to avoid his landlady because he is hopelessly in her debt. He is off to see his pawnbroker to pawn something else. He isn’t from St. Petersburg but is living there to attend the university. He has dropped out due to lack of money. Crushed by poverty and in need of nice clothes, he has also given up on the only way he can earn a small living, by working as a tutor. It doesn’t pay enough to seem worthwhile. He is incredibly handsome. (Well, of course. Protagonists have to be handsome don’t they?)

The name Raskolnikov is derived from the Russian word “raskolnik,” which means schismatic, and according to Wikipedia this alludes to the Old Believer Movement (Old Believers aka старове́ры or старообрядцы), which I don’t get because it seems like Rasknolikov was intended to be the poster boy for the new Socialist movement of the day.

In 1652, Nikon, the then Patriarch of the Russian Orthodox Church, noticed discrepancies between Russian and Greek rites and texts and introduced ritual and textual revisions to create uniformity between Russian and Greek Orthodox practices. He did this without gaining consensus among the clergy. Those who did not accept Nikon’s changes were persecuted from the end of the 17th to the beginning of the 20th century as schismatics or Old Believers (Old Ritualists) (старообрядцы). Old Believers rejected all innovations and the most radical of them believed that the Church had fallen into the hands of the Antichrist.

In 1666, the Church officially suppressed (anathematized) the old rites and books and those who wished to stay loyal to them, and stripped the Old Believers of their civil rights. Persecution, arrests, torture, and executions followed.

(This is pretty cool to me because when I was in Russia, people would sometimes whisper to me: he’s an Old Believer. I had no idea of the significance of that.)

I really don’t think that Raskonikov is supposed to represent the schism of the Church. At one point with Sonia (the 18-year-old girl who has been forced into prostitution as a way to keep her family from starvation, or worse), he questions the existence of God. I think, rather, that Raskonikov, was named for the schism between his motivations and his actions. He is driven by this idealistic view of what good is or should be and, because of this, views himself as above the recognized moral code of what is always good and always evil, allowing himself to believe that he is entitled, justified, even duty-bound to commit a crime if his crime would end evil actions of the one murdered. Or, maybe more accurately, it is the schism that happens when one believes with all one’s heart and soul that to do a particular thing is wrong, but does it anyway.

Raskolnikov’s mother (Pulcheria Alexandrovna) and sister (Avdotya Romanovna) want desperately to help him escape his poverty, misery, and depression. (His father has already passed away.) In this society, it seems the only help from women can come from an advantageous marriage (one for money [in this case of Raskonikov's sister to the "supercillious" Pyotr Petrovich Luzhin]) or through prostitution, a way to thoroughly and forever destroy a girl’s reputation. So basically, it’s condoned prostitution (holders of a yellow passport) or uncondoned prostitution (holders of a marriage certificate). Raskolnikov’s mother, at 43, is too old to be of any use.

Dostoevsky indicates Raskolnikov’s feelings of helplessness with his gruesome and upsetting dream about a mare. Clearly, Dostoevsky has observed how stupid and cruel humans can be once they get an advantage over something that can’t fight back.

Part I, Chapter VII is riveting. Every sentence was a tense extension of the one before it. I was on the edge of my seat. I haven’t read writing so thoroughly engrossing in years. Dostoevsky’s skill is phenomenal. The proofreader of my edition, however, should have been shot. I’ve never seen so many misspellings!

And I suppose it’s the penny-pincher in me, but every time Raskolnikov gave away his rubles (typically to help someone else), I cringed.

Writing this in his 40s, Dostoevsky demonstrates superb skill. He conveys time and space with ease. I am right there with Raskolnikov in his tiny room or walking in the street or along the Neva. I don’t see his face, but I’m in his head. I sympathize with him and yet I’m repelled. Dostoevsky pulls me back and forth as he examines Raskolnikov’s complex character from all directions.

Raskolnikov has a good friend, Razumihin, who sees after him during his “illness.” Just as you might suspect, there is an opportunity to discuss the nature of crime in this novel. According to Socialist doctrine, “crime is a protest against the abnormality of the social organization.”

…if society were properly organized, all crime would cease at once.

This strikes me particularly now as I have been reading about a different Russian, a billionaire Dmitry Itskov, and his idealistic (and rather terrifying) 2045 project aspirations. As humans use technology to achieve immortality, Itskov expects all of humanities’ problems will miraculously disappear.

Are Itskov’s views a reincarnation of the socialist ideas present in Russia in the 1860s?

…there will be nothing to protest against and all men will become righteous in one instant. Human nature is not taken into account, it is excluded, it’s not supposed to exist! … They believe that a social system that has come out of some mathematical brain is going to organize all humanity at once and make it just sinless in an instant…

…they don’t want a living soul! The living soul demands life, the soul won’t obey the rules of mechanics…

These words seem hauntingly relevant today.

Raskolnikov discovers that an article he wrote while a student has been published. In it, he discusses the psychology of a criminal before and after a crime. He suggests that some people have a right [even a duty] to commit crime.

He explains that all men are either ordinary or extraordinary. Ordinary men live in submission and have no right to break the law. Extraordinary men have an right to decide their own conscience and to “step over obstacles … for the benefit of humanity.” [pre-emptive strikes?]

For example, posits Raskolnikov, if the discoveries of Newton and Kepler could not have been made known without sacrificing the lives of a hundred or more people, they would have been duty-bound to eliminate those men.”

And there you have it. There is the reasoning behind the atrocities committed in the name of scientific advancement (chimps in space, gorilla head transplants, introducing animal genes in to plant DNA, etc.) And of course, behind the atrocities committed between nations in the name of “security.”

Raskolnikov goes on: “…all great men … must … be criminals…”

Ordinary people live their lives in a rut and stay there. They are inferior. They preserve the world and the people in it.

Extraordinary people do not. They move the world and lead it to its goal. They have the gift or talent to utter a new word.

Funny how one collects memories and impressions throughout one’s life. So much is discarded and yet some experiences, however irrelevant, linger and come to the surface as the result of some reminder. Maybe some experiences are so extraordinary that one is compelled to pay attention to every detail. The following passage struck me in such a way:

For a minute they were looking at one another in silence. Razumihin remembered that minute all his life. Raskolnikov’s burning and intent eyes grew more penetrating every moment, piercing into his soul, into his consciousness. Suddenly Razumihin started. Something strange, as it were, slipped, something awful, hideous, and suddenly understood on both sides.

One thing that always interests me when I read these types of stories, stories in which the reader is set up to judge the protagonist, is order. My impressions of Raskolnikov would have been different if I had learned more about his character before I was exposed to his crime. I would have felt more sympathetic towards him. As it is, I find myself struggling, which I think is exactly what Doestoevsky intended. It’s easier to forgive someone you know and love, but not so easy to forgive a stranger, even if you do know his thoughts.

Then at last, there is the idea of redemption in suffering.

I finished this novel on the same day that the leading story in the news was about the murder of Chris Kyle, the 38-year-old former Navy SEAL who wrote a memoir about his 150 confirmed sniper killings in Iraq. His wife explained on TV that he did what he loved. Both Kyle and Raskolnikov made the same decision about human life, though Kyle apparently was less bothered by it, but then I haven’t read his book, American Sniper. Sanctioned killing versus unsanctioned killing. It’s important, it seems, to get the rubber stamp.

Was Raskolnikov’s deepest regret the self awareness that he was not, in fact, and extraordinary man?

Several times in my life, I’ve been accused of thinking too much. I’ve always thought that was odd. I think now I finally get what that means. For the truth of things isn’t really so complicated.

At the end, like at the end of Anna Karenina, we are left with the hint that our protagonist will make the conversion from atheism to Christianity.

Tantalizing Talus Tarsus

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As I slipped into my little black dress once again, I was unsure about wearing flipflops on my feet so I opted for closed toe shoes. I was wearing shorts too, so then I worried about getting in an out of the car and whether I would show any leg/ankle. I decided to go rogue, feeling rather naughty in my shorts and singlet top underneath my abaya.

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I thought this post was very interesting in light of the conversations I've been having about Qanta Ahmed's book, In the Land of Invisible Women. I love these firsthand accounts!

Death and the Penguin

Death and the Penguin

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By Andrey KurkovThe Harvill Press, London; @ 1996; 228 pages.

When the Kiev zoo gave its smaller animals away because it could no longer afford to feed them, Victor, a struggling writer, adopted a depressed penguin named Misha. The story unfolds with Victor and Misha living together in an apartment in Kiev. For both of them, it’s a rather unnatural environment.

This book did a great job of grabbing my attention early on. Page one and I was into the story.

Kurkov subtly examines the nature of choice. There is a tension that develops and a contrast that is set up when the main characters have different kinds of situations to deal with: ones they have freely chosen for themselves and ones they have happened into. I enjoyed the way Misha’s predicament mirrored Victor’s internal struggle. I also appreciated that Misha wasn’t turned into a cheesy kid’s character. Misha was always his own penguin. Enigmatic at times, but after all, he was a penguin.

I found Death and the Penguin to be very entertaining. And it ended exactly the way I wanted it to.

One question remained for Andrey Kurkov. On the last page, the last line is the date range: December 1995–February 1996. What is this? The time it took to write the book? Bragging?

[Thanks to the Internet, I was able to find out. Mr. Kurkov was very kind to answer my question and said that this was the time it took him to write the book, although he said that it took him two years to nail down the plot.]

There was something that happened to me while reading this book. Misha the Penguin had a health problem. The resolution to this health problem, when I read it, was like flipping a switch for me. I can’t explain it. I don’t really understand it, but it’s as though a weight was lifted. The shock. The laughter. The immediate understanding. It was all very personal. I’m not promising a cathartic experience for anyone who reads it, but for me, it helped. Sometimes the stars align with literature and this was the case for me.

Death and the Penguin is a quick, fun read.

Sailing Alone Around the Room

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By Billy Collins; @ 2001 Random House; 172 pages.

Sailing Alone Around the Room is one of the books I bought when I was on my Billy Collins kick. I’m not sure if Collins is my favorite poet in the whole wide world, but there is no doubt that he is talented. Reading him always gets me in the mood to write, and I envy those who were/are so lucky to have him as a professor. Lucky, lucky, lucky.

Sailing Alone Around the Room includes new poems as well as selected poems from The Apple That Astonished Paris (1988), Questions About Angels (1991), The Art of Drowning (1995), and Picnic, Lightning (1998).

The poems out of this book I most responded to were:

  • Another Reason Why I Don’t Keep a Gun in the House
  • The Lesson
  • Winter Syntax
  • Advice to Writers
  • Introduction to Poetry
  • Schoolsville
  • Questions About Angels
  • Candle Hat
  • The Dead
  • Vade Mecum
  • Purity
  • Days
  • Workshop
  • Piano Lessons
  • Some Final Words
  • Aristotle

The Great Enigma: New Collected Poems

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By Tomas Tranströmer; Translated by Robin Fulton; @ 2006 by New Directions Publishing Corporation, 257 pages.

Tomas Tranströmer was the recipient of the 2011 Nobel Prize for literature “because, through his condensed, translucent images, he gives us fresh access to reality.”

Born April 15, 1931, in Stockholm, Sweden, Tomas Tranströmer has been translated into 50 languages. The Great Enigma is the complete collection of Tranströmer’s published poetry, a compilation of his 12 poetry books. Tranströmer’s subject matter often focuses on the Swedish natural landscape and on the poet’s observations from daily life. One gets a sense of the cold, salty sea air when reading his poems.

I came to Tranströmer’s poetry, having never visited Sweden and knowing very little about life there. I found his poems very difficult to penetrate. Often they seemed to be talking about one thing, only to stray completely from the topic at hand. Tomas Tranströmer has a lot to offer. His poems need to be read and digested slowly. They deserve many reads. There are many wonderful lyrical phrases, but taken as units, I found them hard to decipher.

Poems from this book that I plan to come back to are as follows:

  • Ostinato
  • Agitated Meditation
  • Elegy
  • Epilogue
  • Weather Picture
  • The Four Temperaments
  • Secrets on the Way
  • After an Attack
  • The Couple
  • The Tree and the Sky
  • Espresso
  • The Palace
  • The Half-Finished Heaven
  • A Winter Night
  • From an African Diary
  • Winter’s Formulae
  • Morning Birds
  • Alone
  • Downpour over the Interior
  • In the Open
  • By the River
  • Preludes
  • Sketch in October
  • Along the Radius
  • Baltics
  • Schubertiana
  • The Gallery
  • A Place in the Forest
  • Icelandic Hurricane
  • Dream Seminar
  • Early May Stanzas
  • Leaflet
  • The Indoors Is Endless
  • Madrigal
  • Golden Wasp
  • April and Silence

Lines I especially liked:

“Waking up is a parachute jump from dreams.”

“A dog’s barking is a hieroglyph painted in the air above the garden”

“I stood in a room that contained every moment—a butterfly museum.”

“There’s a tree walking around in the rain, it rushes past us in the pouring grey.”

“It helps perhaps with handshakes like a flight of migratory birds.”

“The lake is a window into the earth.”

“In the daylight a dot of beneficent black that quickly flows into a pale customer.”

I looked at the sky and at the earth and straight ahead

and since then I’ve been writing a long letter to the dead

on a typewriter with no ribbon just a horizon line

so the words knock in vain and nothing sticks.”

The Reluctant Fundamentalist

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By Mohsin Hamid; @ 2007, Harcourt Books; 184 pages.

It is late afternoon, and you are an American on the streets of Lahore, Pakistan. Perhaps you are lost. Maybe you are seeking the perfect cup of tea. That might be your excuse if anyone should ask. A Pakistani man approaches you.

“Excuse me,” he says. He wants to know if he may be of some assistance. “Do not be frightened by my beard,” he says. He tells you that he is a lover of America, and you appear to be on a mission.

Anyone who has ever been assailed by kindness, trapped in a conversation or situation on the pretense of maintaining good manners can relate to the dynamics constructed by Mohsin Hamid in the Reluctant Fundamentalist. Page one hooks the reader by offering an intriguing interpersonal dynamic. Who is our narrator? Is he an ordinary man or out to do someone harm? Who is he addressing? Is his American conversant an innocent tourist, a businessman, or a spy?

As readers, we can only eavesdrop on the conversation from the narrator’s point of view. No matter, because it appears that the narrator, Changez, is happy to do most of the talking. Changez escorts the American to a café where they can have a perfect cup of tea. Changez begins to tell the story of his time in America. Why does Changez need to tell this story? Why is tonight a “night of some importance”? Will this be the American’s last meal?

The story of Changez in America begins around the time of his graduation from Princeton. To celebrate, he goes on a trip to Greece with a group of Americans. In Greece, he falls in love with Erica, an American girl his group. Changez takes the relationship slowly. He wants more, even marriage, but there is something holding Erica back.

Changez soon lands a coveted position at an American valuation company called Underwood Samson. At 22, he is making $80,000 a year. It is intense work, but after three years, Changez can depend on acceptance to Harvard Business School. At Underwood Samson, success requires employees to focus on the “fundamentals.” Only the fundamentals of companies are acceptable measures to determine their value. Underwood Samson’s assessments often result in job losses, and empathy for employees can only impair the assessment. Changez excels at his work. He focuses on the fundamentals.

Shortly after Changez is hired, the terrorist attacks of September 11 compel him to re-evaluate his identity. He goes home to Pakistan to see his family. Nuclear tensions are high between India and Pakistan after September 11, and Changez is concerned war will break out between the two countries. He feels guilty about returning to his job in New York instead of staying with his family through this crisis. On his flight back to the United States, he notes:

I found it ironic; children and the elderly were meant to be sent away from impending battles, but in our case it was the fittest and brightest who were leaving, those who in the past would have been most expected to remain. I was filled with such contempt for myself…

After Changez returns to the United States, he sees things differently. He is no longer eager to please his employer. He becomes defiant and stops shaving his beard. People mistake him for a terrorist. He is angry and begins to realize that something is wrong with Erica.

As afternoon becomes evening, and evening turns into night, Changez and the American eat at the café. The courses of their meal, served by a large, ominous waiter, pace the story. Eventually, it becomes clear why Changez gave up his career in the United States and returned to Pakistan.

Mohsin Hamid is a master of psychological introspection. The Reluctant Fundamentalist is filled with unexpected developments and metaphors. Questions arise, such as: How should we make decisions about our world? and Is it possible to separate the fundamentals from the big picture? Goals and aspirations are weighed against loyalties and ways of seeing the world. Do Changez’s experiences in the United States lead him to embrace religious fundamentalism once he returns home? The reader isn’t sure. This creates great suspense.

Because of Changez’s journey and knowing what he has decided to give up, the reader expects Changez to act decisively. During dinner, Changez tells the American, “Here we are not squeamish when it comes to facing the consequences of our desire.” What is the result of this one-way baring of souls? What will happen after dinner?

The Reluctant Fundamentalist illustrates the difficulties encountered when trying to bridge the gap that has been widened by cultural distrust. When fear is a factor for both sides, one can only hope it is not too late.

The Reluctant Fundamentalist is Moshin Hamid’s second novel. His first novel, Moth Smoke, won a Betty Trask award and was a PEN/Hemingway Award finalist.

————–The BBC World Book Club interviewed Mohsid Hamid about the Reluctant Fundamentalist. You can listen to that interview here:

http://downloads.bbc.co.uk/podcasts/worldservice/wbc/wbc_20090307-0806b.mp3

In the Land of Invisible Women

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By Qanta Ahmed, MD; @2008; Sourcebooks, Inc.; 437 pages.

I came to this book with very little knowledge of Islam or of Saudi Arabia. This was a fascinating read, and I highly recommend the book. While structurally the book reads like a series of ideas that the author felt compelled to cover, the book is loaded with interesting factual information—it is a must read for anyone planning a trip to the Kingdom.

What is certain from the very beginning is that Ahmed did not like to veil. I came away from the book thinking that veiling might be ok if it weren’t mandatory. The fact that women can be harrassed if not properly veiled offends my Western sensibilities. Also, what’s up with men wearing white (a heat repelling color) in a hot climate and women having to wear black (a heat attracting color)? That ain’t right.

I was shocked to learn that women are not allowed to purchase music. I love Arabian music, and I simply can’t imagine not being allowed to listen to it or purchase it on my own.

Throughout the book, I was haunted by the question of what does a woman do if she has no male figure in her life to drive her, accompany her, or do all the other things that only men are allowed to do? Women are like possessions.

Ahmed’s writing is engaging, and every night I looked forward to sitting down and reading more about her experiences. I was fascinated by her spiritual experiences during Hajj, but also upset that only Muslims are allowed entry. The recurring theme of this book seemed to be: “you’re not in the club.”

Ahmed’s coverage of the relationship between the Muttawa and the Saudi royalty was very interesting.

One thing is certain, I would not do well in the Kingdom. I’d slip up and get into some kind of life-threatening trouble.

In the Land of Invisible Women was a fascinating adventure into a place I will probably never go. I give it two thumbs up and a wiggle.

Glory

gloryBy Vladimir Nabokov.

Well I wasn’t too excited about reading Glory. This is one of those books that was on my grandmother’s shelf ever since I can remember.

Glory is the first book I’ve read by Vladimir Nabokov. (I couldn’t bring myself to read Lolita.) Nabokov displayed a great ability to write into and out of reality. The main character, Martin, drifted in and out of reveries. Most of the time I could understand what was what, but sometimes I had to reread.

Martin is part Russian, part Swiss. We follow him from his youth through his college days during the time of the Bolshevik revolution.

I didn’t really enjoy this book. It was fun to read about things Russian, but I didn’t care about any of the characters. Nabokov writes in the omniscient narrator, so that might account for my lack of caring. Not sure. The end was startling and got me thinking, so that’s always nice.